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General Discussion / Re: Psychosis from extreme dis...
Last post by Teddy bear - January 11, 2026, 09:03:05 PMThanks, Blueberry, I understand
#2
Symptoms - Other / Re: Contentious Symptom
Last post by Teddy bear - January 11, 2026, 09:01:24 PMHi DogMan,
Not sure whether you are still experiencing the symptoms, as this topic hasn't been updated. Hopefully not.
But just in case, the voices you described sound similar to what I was hearing.
I am on a neuroleptic now and don't hear them while taking it. I've had a few attempts to taper off, which resulted in psychotic episodes—likely due to dopaminergic sensitivity.
My diagnosis is schizophrenia, though I have doubts about it. In my region, doctors rarely question a diagnosis when symptoms resemble psychosis.
But I feel I differ from other patients with psychosis or schizophrenia whom I've met.
I also considered dissociative disorders before my first hospitalization. Back then, I was persuaded it was psychosis, but now I'm reassessing that again.
Not sure whether you are still experiencing the symptoms, as this topic hasn't been updated. Hopefully not.
But just in case, the voices you described sound similar to what I was hearing.
I am on a neuroleptic now and don't hear them while taking it. I've had a few attempts to taper off, which resulted in psychotic episodes—likely due to dopaminergic sensitivity.
My diagnosis is schizophrenia, though I have doubts about it. In my region, doctors rarely question a diagnosis when symptoms resemble psychosis.
But I feel I differ from other patients with psychosis or schizophrenia whom I've met.
I also considered dissociative disorders before my first hospitalization. Back then, I was persuaded it was psychosis, but now I'm reassessing that again.
#3
General Discussion / Re: Psychosis from extreme dis...
Last post by Blueberry - January 11, 2026, 08:52:14 PMNevish hasn't been on the forum since 2017 So likely not to reply Teddybear.
#4
General Discussion / Re: Psychosis from extreme dis...
Last post by Teddy bear - January 11, 2026, 08:30:17 PMHi there Nevish, not sure if it's okay to revisit this topic,
but I'm reading this book now and I think I may be a case of extreme dissociation resulting in psychosis.
If this is still relevant, please feel free to discuss it with me. I'm also interested to learn more about other people's experiences.
Kind regards
but I'm reading this book now and I think I may be a case of extreme dissociation resulting in psychosis.
If this is still relevant, please feel free to discuss it with me. I'm also interested to learn more about other people's experiences.
Kind regards
#5
Recovery Journals / Re: Desert Flower's Recovery J...
Last post by Desert Flower - January 11, 2026, 08:13:05 PMHi TheBigBlue, thank you for your thoughtful response. And I'm very sorry you have had to experience such a major collapse these past weeks. I do hope with you will feel better soon.
Many times when writing here on the forum I feel I'm just letting out the words to let them out. Many times I do not expect to be met with such understanding and wisdom. When I am, it just amazes me. Like now.
And what you write about internal safety resonates deeply too. The times that I did feel safe internally were the times I was connected to what I have come to call my Self. And be able to relate to others from that Self.
I'll think some more about what to tell or not to tell the company doctor. Maybe not mention the parts. But do point out that this pattern has been going on for decades.
Many times when writing here on the forum I feel I'm just letting out the words to let them out. Many times I do not expect to be met with such understanding and wisdom. When I am, it just amazes me. Like now.
Quote from: TheBigBlue on January 11, 2026, 04:27:27 PMwhat looked like "strength" was actually over-adaptation. Survival depended on hyper-functioning, vigilance, maintaining harmony, suppressing my own reality and needs to preserve connection – self-erasure through compliance, endurance, silence, and not burdening others. That came at the cost of authenticity, needs, and safety.This resonates deeply. It makes very good sense to me why indeed it bothers me so whenever people point out I'm 'strong'.
And what you write about internal safety resonates deeply too. The times that I did feel safe internally were the times I was connected to what I have come to call my Self. And be able to relate to others from that Self.
I'll think some more about what to tell or not to tell the company doctor. Maybe not mention the parts. But do point out that this pattern has been going on for decades.
#6
Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: Hi
Last post by TheBigBlue - January 11, 2026, 06:52:21 PMHi Ashley, 
I'm really glad you found your way here, even though I'm sorry for what brought you. Many of us came looking for exactly what you named: connection, understanding, and some hope that things can ease over time. You're very welcome here, just as you are, and you can share as much or as little as feels right. I hope this space helps you feel less alone.
I'm really glad you found your way here, even though I'm sorry for what brought you. Many of us came looking for exactly what you named: connection, understanding, and some hope that things can ease over time. You're very welcome here, just as you are, and you can share as much or as little as feels right. I hope this space helps you feel less alone.
#7
Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: Hi
Last post by NarcKiddo - January 11, 2026, 06:20:38 PMWelcome. I'm glad you found us.
#8
Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: Greetings from the storm- ...
Last post by Teddy bear - January 11, 2026, 06:07:11 PMHi and welcome 👋
Regarding reptiles, I like lizards. Well, actually my dog likes them 🙂
Regarding reptiles, I like lizards. Well, actually my dog likes them 🙂
#9
Books & Articles / Re: David Bedrick - The Unsham...
Last post by Kizzie - January 11, 2026, 06:00:33 PMThanks for this SO, it's such a big part of our trauma landscape that any help ridding ourselves of it is a positive move in recovery.
One thing that has helped me deal with shame is first identifying it (it can run quite deeply in the soul), and then figuring out why I feel it. In my case (and I'm sure most others survivors) a lot of shame came as a form of control by those abused me. If I felt shame then I was more vulnerable and open to manipulation and abuse.
Thus, saying "No" to shame I didn't earn or deserve was pivotal. I think this falls under "radical beliefs" ("reclaim our voice, experiences, and embodied truths by owning our authority, autonomy, and authentic needs") and embracing my true self.
I must say I love the word "deshaming"!
One thing that has helped me deal with shame is first identifying it (it can run quite deeply in the soul), and then figuring out why I feel it. In my case (and I'm sure most others survivors) a lot of shame came as a form of control by those abused me. If I felt shame then I was more vulnerable and open to manipulation and abuse.
Thus, saying "No" to shame I didn't earn or deserve was pivotal. I think this falls under "radical beliefs" ("reclaim our voice, experiences, and embodied truths by owning our authority, autonomy, and authentic needs") and embracing my true self.
I must say I love the word "deshaming"!
#10
Please Introduce Yourself Here / Hi
Last post by ashley1994 - January 11, 2026, 05:53:38 PMHi,
My name is Ashley, they/them. Ive been recovering from repressed SA, and recently realised I'm experiencing C-PTSD. And I found this forum. I just don't want to feel so alone with my experiences and symptoms anymore. And I want to know that there are other survivors like me, and have some hope that that this will get better. Thanks
My name is Ashley, they/them. Ive been recovering from repressed SA, and recently realised I'm experiencing C-PTSD. And I found this forum. I just don't want to feel so alone with my experiences and symptoms anymore. And I want to know that there are other survivors like me, and have some hope that that this will get better. Thanks