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Recovery Journals / Re: Ran's journey
Last post by Ran - Today at 06:17:58 PMQuote from: Chart on Today at 05:53:18 PMFound it:
https://www.cptsd.org/forum/index.php?topic=17020.0
Thank you.
I actually do know about the book. There is a pdf version available online and I'm reading it, though I haven't got very far. I can relate to stuff as well.I heard about the book a long time ago, before I even knew about my cptsd and thought it's intresting, but never got around to reading it. It does seem like a mandatory book for us.
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Recovery Journals / Re: Ran's journey
Last post by Chart - Today at 05:53:18 PM #3
Research / Re: new research and hope for ...
Last post by Chart - Today at 05:48:25 PMVery interesting!
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Recovery Journals / Re: Ran's journey
Last post by Chart - Today at 05:44:46 PMRan, someone recently wrote about Bessel Van der Kolk's "The Body Keeps the Score" here on the Forum. You might want to look into the book if you haven't heard of it. I'll try to find the link here on the Forum.
Glad to hear about your disability requirements being fulfilled.
Glad to hear about your disability requirements being fulfilled.
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Recovery Journals / Re: Desert Flower's Recovery J...
Last post by NarcKiddo - Today at 04:41:41 PMI'm very happy that you feel cleared up and want to stay. 
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General Discussion / Re: progress notes nov 25
Last post by NarcKiddo - Today at 04:34:54 PMThank you for your update. I am glad you are finding the meds helpful. I am also glad that you have come to a greater understanding about yourself and your situation.
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Recovery Journals / Re: Ran's journey
Last post by Ran - Today at 02:58:57 PMGot new information. Seems me helping family members with disabilities could count towards disability support activity requirements and I wouldn't have to worry about working or studying or attending job office and my financial support would continue. It would take immense pressure off my shoulders and I can still do my work in graphic design field and use this time to heal more withouth extra worry.
I ended not telling about the cptsd stuff to GP. I think I got scared a bit, but I still can tell my psychiatrist.
My gp wrote me medication for my heart as I get palpitations and had high blood plessure.
I think a lot of the symptoms especially inflammation that do not go away with antibiotics and high sensitivity to medications could be due to cptsd as well. I did read some stuff about it online.
I ended not telling about the cptsd stuff to GP. I think I got scared a bit, but I still can tell my psychiatrist.
My gp wrote me medication for my heart as I get palpitations and had high blood plessure.
I think a lot of the symptoms especially inflammation that do not go away with antibiotics and high sensitivity to medications could be due to cptsd as well. I did read some stuff about it online.
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Other / Re: Our Healing Porch Part 8
Last post by Blueberry - Today at 02:55:19 PMFinally come to join you on the porch, san and everybody. I'm curled in a chair covered in warm wool blankets watching the fire and dozing off. It feels easier to sit and do nothing but here on the Porch than at home.
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Other / Re: Our Healing Porch Part 8
Last post by sanmagic7 - Today at 12:42:58 PMTBB, thank you for joining me. so glad you found this place. there is a big porch off the big house that faces the beach and water, w/ chairs and blankets, a fire on the beach, waves lapping. there's this cabin, a veggie garden for those who like to putter there, a tree house - whatever you want. this cabin is in the woods on a lake for fishing, and it really is magic. i slept in my rocker last nite - it felt safer than my bed. glad you find this place comforting.
chart, i love that you love to do that stuff! there's always plenty to do (or not), so have at it! thanks for being here. love it.
i'm very shaky this morning, so will be staying here for a bit. i just can't believe this happened.
chart, i love that you love to do that stuff! there's always plenty to do (or not), so have at it! thanks for being here. love it.
i'm very shaky this morning, so will be staying here for a bit. i just can't believe this happened.
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General Discussion / Re: progress notes nov 25
Last post by Chart - Today at 12:20:03 PMJamesG3, your narrative seems to reveal to me a side of human nature that I simply cannot fathom. Though faced with it a million times, I fail utterly to comprehend humankind's inhumanity to their fellows. All that I can assume is that human consciousness is still evolving. I believe it is a dark period for our species, no less so than for the capacity of individuals and organizations (business) to wreak havoc and misery upon their clients and our planet. This inordinate power in the hands of the few is given willingly and freely by an enormous population nearly devoid of existential understanding. Yet it need not be so (imo).
I believe the final indivisible quantum particle is love. It is the total and eternal foundation upon which is constructed our universe. Pulling back, one by one, the infinite layers of understanding, we inevitably approach that singularity that becomes more undeniably evident the closer we get. Attaining, absorbing and dissolving in this state, we slowly pull those of like energy towards us, like mass falling in towards those points of infinite density. And that pull is not a plunge into destruction, but a metamorphosis into a rebirth, an evolution into a different reality, one where the construct is one step closer to the ultimate element.
I believe those who wreak havoc on others do so out of an ultimate hatred and denial of themselves. In that I mourn for them. And that mourning is a release from their power and impact over me. Step by small step I inch my way towards self-love, and in this way find clues of like-souls along the path. Slowly I set aside my arms of anger and pain of betrayal. Slowly I say, because some days finds me upside down facing back upon the path I've traversed. I see my horrible mother there behind me and my heart leaps into my throat for the love that has been wasted in hate. And here, on this point of the path, I weep, not like a man, but as a child that understands nothing, nothing but that one basic element.
And for me it is clear... unconditional love, for others AND FOR MYSELF... that is my lifeboat. That is my rope and harness on this cliff of life. How many times have I considered cutting my own rope? Yet I don't, I haven't... why? Because I see and read and feel in the experiences of others that thing that I too have experienced and felt and written. Across the ether I sense connection. And it wills me on.
Thank you from my deepest heart for sharing your experience, JamesG3. This world is truly as beautiful as we want it to be.
I believe the final indivisible quantum particle is love. It is the total and eternal foundation upon which is constructed our universe. Pulling back, one by one, the infinite layers of understanding, we inevitably approach that singularity that becomes more undeniably evident the closer we get. Attaining, absorbing and dissolving in this state, we slowly pull those of like energy towards us, like mass falling in towards those points of infinite density. And that pull is not a plunge into destruction, but a metamorphosis into a rebirth, an evolution into a different reality, one where the construct is one step closer to the ultimate element.
I believe those who wreak havoc on others do so out of an ultimate hatred and denial of themselves. In that I mourn for them. And that mourning is a release from their power and impact over me. Step by small step I inch my way towards self-love, and in this way find clues of like-souls along the path. Slowly I set aside my arms of anger and pain of betrayal. Slowly I say, because some days finds me upside down facing back upon the path I've traversed. I see my horrible mother there behind me and my heart leaps into my throat for the love that has been wasted in hate. And here, on this point of the path, I weep, not like a man, but as a child that understands nothing, nothing but that one basic element.
And for me it is clear... unconditional love, for others AND FOR MYSELF... that is my lifeboat. That is my rope and harness on this cliff of life. How many times have I considered cutting my own rope? Yet I don't, I haven't... why? Because I see and read and feel in the experiences of others that thing that I too have experienced and felt and written. Across the ether I sense connection. And it wills me on.
Thank you from my deepest heart for sharing your experience, JamesG3. This world is truly as beautiful as we want it to be.