Alcohol...

[Spirals]

Hopefully she does *fingers crossed* Maybe you could check. If it were me, it would bother me to not check even though I was too depressed to do it in the first place. Then it would just become a new thing to beat myself over the head with while I'm depressed 

I'm terrible at remembering personal stuff, too. I don't know if that's comforting, lol. Especially if I get overwhelmed. I usually shut down when I get too stressed and then I feel worse because I wind up making more problems for myself due to missed deadlines, etc. 

I'm in college and my degree has taken much longer than it should because I'm chronically depressed and stressed. I feel like I burnt out before college but life just keeps piling stuff on me

[Healing Finally]

Hi Twinkletoes (and everyone who posted here) 

Just wanted to chime in, I have indeed used alcohol as a way of coping with my c-ptsd.  Especially at family functions, I would, as someone put it, get SLOSHED.  I look back and am so frickin sad about it, how everyone use to say "oh poor her, she really has a problem" when the problem was my ongoing anguish due to the scapegoat position I was put in (and later have learned allowed myself to be put in.)

I have had a very intense relationship with both alcohol and drugs, due to the need to numb out, but now I smoke a little pot when I feel the anxiety coming on (it does help me, depending on which type.)

I haven't had a drink in almost 6 years.  I know I've got that family gene where I loose the "off switch" after a few drinks, so alcohol is off the menu for good.  I now understand the c-ptsd really helped to kick it in even further.

Certainly don't get down on yourself, but, I do recommend to look within and determine if the alcohol is more meaningful to you than you may be acknowledging.

Just FYI for anyone who thinks they may have a drinking issue, I have greatly benefited from the LifeRing Secular recovery program, they have a ton of info online and a lot of ways to connect with others like chat, forum, email lists, etc.  The book "Empowering your Sober Self" was a huge positive influence for me.

  {{HUGS}}