Andyman's journal/story/whatever/collection of random thoughts out of the ether.

[Hope66]

Hi Andy,
I've read some of your Journal, and just wanted to pop by and say that I think you're handling so many tough things, and you've got a lot on your plate, and I really hope that you will have some relief in sight - sending you a hug  if that's ok. 
Hope 

[Andyman73]

Hi Andy,
I've read some of your Journal, and just wanted to pop by and say that I think you're handling so many tough things, and you've got a lot on your plate, and I really hope that you will have some relief in sight - sending you a hug  if that's ok. 
Hope 

Hello Hope,
I hope so too(hope that's not too weird).  Seems like my plate keeps getting piled higher and higher. Hugs are always okay, my friend. Thank you so much. 

Andy

[Hope66]

Doesn't sound weird at all, Andy - sounds perfectly reasonable to me!     I hope that plate isn't too heavy, and maybe there are some plates you could put aside to deal with another time - I don't know - but whatever happens, know that we're all here supporting you - and being here 
Hope 

[DecimalRocket]

 

[Andyman73]

Doesn't sound weird at all, Andy - sounds perfectly reasonable to me!     I hope that plate isn't too heavy, and maybe there are some plates you could put aside to deal with another time - I don't know - but whatever happens, know that we're all here supporting you - and being here 
Hope 

Thank you so much Hope. I not try to pile up plates. Seems like everywhere I turn, another plate gets tossed onto the pile, no matter what. Just want to let them fall and come what may. But too afraid my life will be over, as I know it. Don't want to end up with a psychotic break, either. Thank you for being here Hope. I really appreciate that very much. 

Thank you DR!   

Andy

[sanmagic7]

 

[Andyman73]

[ah]

Thank you so much Hope. I not try to pile up plates. Seems like everywhere I turn, another plate gets tossed onto the pile, no matter what. Just want to let them fall and come what may.

Can we carry a few of the plates for you? I can handle maybe one or two extra plates, so that there'll be a little less weight for you.
Give us a couple of your plates.

But too afraid my life will be over, as I know it.

I hope it'll have new things in it.
A bit of safety, and calm, and no new plates on top of all the ones you've got to juggle as it is.

 

[sanmagic7]

andy, i think anytime we make a change, as in get rid of a plate, our lives are over as we knew them.  go slowly, get used to the change, let yourself find yourself in your new life, then, when you're ready, you can let go of another plate.  we're here to help you with them.   big hug.

[Andyman73]

Ah,
Yes, you may help with plates. That would be so wonderful. Thank you.  I do think things will ease up a little, in the new year.  Especially after I move out, which isn't too far away now.

[Andyman73]

San,
I hadn't thought of that, you know? That  one plate being released creates change. I was too focused on the big picture. I do think the biggest plate of them all...abusive wife plate, is the one making all the other plates so unbearable.  Will be dropping that one very very soon!!! 😁

 

[sanmagic7]

andy, it sounds like that plate can't be dropped soon enough.  so very proud of you (if that isn't presumptuous) to be taking that step.  very happy for you as well.  hope it goes as smoothly as possible.  warm, loving hug to you, my dear brother.

[Andyman73]

San,
Forget dropped!!! Thrown like a discus reaching for a new world record!!! 
Oh thank you so very much, dearest and most wonderful San. 
I do hope it goes smooth, like you say. I'm ready for a break from the rough stuff for a while. Warm loving  to you, dear sweet loving sister. 

[DecimalRocket]

Yes, start with what will heal you the most. That's a great idea.

[Andyman73]

Yes, start with what will heal you the most. That's a great idea.

DR, can't say for sure, but tossing the "abusive wife" plate will have profound effects on my life. And honestly....the initial freedom of it all will be quite staggering I think. But on the other hand..the dramatic drop off of daily stress will probably make me feel like a million dollars....okay not really, but maybe a few hundred dollars!