Being socially inappropriate

[BlancaLap]

I know I'm socially inappropriate. And I know why.

I always seem to stare at people for too long, I smile with an obviously fake smile, my voice, my facial expressions... what I say, the way I say it, the moment I say it, the context, which words I use to say it...

I have my mind foggy, I'm numb, everything seems unreal and I can't quite understand what's going on.

The last year I was convinced (and still am), that the only way to make things right is to wait until my mind is not foggy, or is ok, to interact with other people. It's just that... when I interact when I'm ok, everything is ok. But when I interact when I'm not ok, nothing goes right.