My first noticeable progress!

[Cookido]

Wanted to share my first noticeable progress with you.

It started while listening to a pod and I got triggered by something that was said. My inner critic started shaming and guilt-tripping me.

I went to OOTS to the IC forum, remembering there was information how to cope. So I tried the steps in  the article "Calm your inner critic". And something amazing happened!

For others it might seem like the smallest thing, and therefore I felt like sharing on this forum where someone might understand what a huge step it was for me. The coping technique made me feel proud of myself for the first time ever.

It wasn't just a thought, it was a feeling. I didn't recognize the emotion, it was short, coming on and off for just a second. But it was there. I think what I felt was being proud. (I actually had to google if proud even was a feeling to make sure I wasn't way out, omg).

It might sound abstract, but I'm used to being numb or feeling negative feelings such as guilt, sadness, anger etc. This was new, and comforting. I could be proud over myself, even if only for a second. I didn't even know I could feel proud over myself. But I have that in me, the emotion exists!

I will keep exploring feelings and make the IC shut up. I'm seeing some hope, especially because I did it by myself, almost, this forum made it possible in the first place. ♡

Thank you

[Blueberry]

 

[Libby183]

Well done, cookido.

In my experience, once you have one of these breakthroughs, others are sure to follow. Keep telling yourself how proud you are. That is such a valuable thing to do. And tell all of us here,  because we are proud of you as well!

Libby.

[Three Roses]

This is huge! Progress! I'm so happy for you!!

[sanmagic7]

cookido, that is so wonderful.  no small feat at all.  to have that kind of breakthrough is tremendous, and i think it shows that you are indeed making progress of the best kind.  it may not last, but you now know it's there, so i don't doubt it will come back and bring all it's positive relatives with it in time.  well done, sweetie.  big hug full of congratulations and continuing opening of those positive doorways.