I'm not sure if I titled this thread well but it was the closest to what I am trying to work toward.
I am curious if anyone can relate or has ways they manage.
I had a few work interactions over the past few weeks that have left me feeling ashamed.
During these interactions I was emotionally dysregulated and shared thoughts and concerns in a way that isn't going to get help or support in the way I need.
What I think happened:
People still feel generally unsafe to me and I tend to expect to be hurt or dismissed.
Given this mindset, I think I keep myself stuck in a place where I feel like I have no agency or ability to get my needs met or viewpoint heard.
I am realizing that when I walk out the door to go to work, I tend to go into "auto pilot" in order to cope and don't feel prepared almost ever to interact with most people.
I think what I would like to shift is feeling more prepared or confident in interacting with others.
I don't want to give up on myself like it feels like I am doing.
There are reasons I do that but I am really tired of feeling so much lingering shame for my emotional dysregulation.
I think there are ways to say "I'm not feeling my best right now" in a way that doesn't send the other person into fight or flight too.