Making decisions is a real problem for me, anyone else? Reading anything lengthy also a problem. Today I ended up in the bed and don't remember getting back in bed. It's like I'm re-entering the fog again.
I often also have trouble making decisions. I had thought it was part of being an HSP. Many HSPs like to 'explore all of our options' and so might get bogged down in the decision-making process. I had not thought that the CPTSD could be part of it (though I have known I am HSP for about 10 years and CPTSD only for a year or so). Thank you Trace for the insight.
For reading, I normally read a lot. Recently, however I had a big EF. I know I still have not recovered because since then I seem unable to read anything more than a paragraph or two and often I am re-reading to try and figure out what that paragraph or two said.
And yes, lately I am also ending up in places and not remembering how (or why) I went there. I find this part of the fog the scariest of all.
I agree I don't like the feeling of not remembering why I am some where I don't remember going. I don't like not having the control over myself. That's why I don't like meds and no longer drink alcohol. The not being able to make decisions is a problem because there' a lot that I need to do.
Reading, yep, I do that too. Find myself just looking over the words and not absorbing any of what I read. Then have to re-read it. Very frustrating.
I almost always have a hard time making making decisions because I have conflicting feelings about basically everything. Sometimes it's crippling.
Yup, me too! I think it's hard to make decisions when you don't have a very strong sense of self (which is definitely my experience with CPTSD- no sense of self, just worrying about what others think of me.) As I kind of explore who I am, my feelings and preferences, it's starting to get a bit easier to make decisions based on who I am.
Quote from: annbelievesinwhales on October 09, 2015, 09:39:37 PM
Yup, me too! I think it's hard to make decisions when you don't have a very strong sense of self (which is definitely my experience with CPTSD- no sense of self, just worrying about what others think of me.) As I kind of explore who I am, my feelings and preferences, it's starting to get a bit easier to make decisions based on who I am.
I entirely relate to that and I think my reluctance to make decisions has been a coping mechanism to avoid the toxic shame I have been feeling when I get something wrong.
I can't say I have the feeling of failure from making a decisions, we all make mistakes. Or that my sense of self is an issue here. I feel like there is soooooo much going on inside my head that I can't grasp one idea or thought to process. The thought of trying to do this brings on anxiety to the point I turn away from it. Then I have to deal with it again later, same issue, just a revolving door.