I had the most bizzare experience.
I'm new to the idea of CPTSD and I was reflecting on my past . . . why everything came to be . . . and it was too much. At that moment, I forgot nearly everything about the present.
I stared at my room and didn't know why it looked different. I felt my body and I wondered why I was bigger than I was as a child. I looked at the little memories I had of recent times and concluded it was the memories of a different person. CPTSD? The me then laughed. Of course not. I kept thinking I had a happy family despite barely able to remember anything about them.
Later something backflipped in my mind and suddenly I switched to different memories of my life. For some reason, my mind managed to filter all the bad scenarios in life to just remember my accomplishments. Suddenly, I became arrogant. I remember thinking, "I have no mistakes. I'm perfect. Perfect. Everyone else who isn't is terrible."
Later on, I'd remember a little bit about this forum and getting the sense that I wanted to remember this place. I felt gratitude for the people who were kind to me. The memories then flooded back. . . and I felt myself grieve. I did some grounding techniques and I went back to how I am usually. But I still feel like . . . my life isn't real.
Uhhh. . . What just happened?
I have done variations of that. It is a form of dissociating. Dissociation can happen in so many different ways it can be confusing. I usually can find the trigger if I look hard enough. It can be a smell. When it is at home it is usually something that was on TV that I wasn't paying attention to. Then it is a saying, or the last one was a car that had been my family car. It just reminded me of my childhood. One time I got stuck so badly I thought I was hallucinating. Turns out I wasn't, there was a trigger when I went back through what got me there.
:hug:
What happened to you was dissociation, but I think you already know that. I'm sorry it happened to you and I can say I can relate to your post A LOT. Wish you the best!