I just want to preface this by saying I don't remembe if I was abused sexually and I'm stil just confused in general but I've been getting flashbacks and have a registered sex offender in my family no one cared was around children and who knows who else. Just a confused vent. Thanks for being here everyone.
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Ive been having some terrifying nightmares lately. This last one was really sexually violent regrading family members and involved my sister getting raped. I'm not sure if I should ask her if she remembers anything or not as she is generally very fragile. I just don't know what to do in regards to this right now. It seems like any time I forget what did or could have happened my body finds a way to bring it right back up. My sister is the only one I have contact with in my family. I considered opening contact again with others but I think it's for the best I don't and Im kinda unsure about keeping the relationship with my sister too. I just feel drained and I'm angry that I had to wake up frightened.
Do you have a therapist? You have some ligament concerns here and I feel you would benefit from exploring this with a therapist. Unfortunately, when the box is opened the emotions can be overwhelming, especially when there is no foundation. The same might be true for your sister.