No contact with any of my family and my baby brother just wrote me out of the blue to say his girlfriend is having a baby. This will be my first niece or nephew and the emotions are hitting me hard. I've always wanted to be an aunt and I lost that opportunity when I went no contact. Now that it's really happening the loss isn't theoretical anymore and I'm feeling it hard. But my reasons for going no contact with my family haven't changed. Feeling very sad today. And guilty and all kinds of things.
Sorry to hear this is upsetting you. I imagine it is very difficult. Take some time for yourself to process these new thoughts and feelings. Take care! :)
Really difficult. Hearing your deep sadness.