I felt utter confusion and shame, when I had forced sex by my abusers. I was always being told of degrading terms, such as "you're a piece of *". I did not understand sexual knowledge and was being taught of sexual pleasure by my abusers, in my innocence.
I was video recorded to be exploited by countless of other abusers. Most of what I have gone through were under blind rape episodes, due to the dissociative amnesia, in order to cope with the damaging psychological effects.
Dear RA-Survivor
Thank you for your honesty and courage sharing your story here.
My heart aches for you and all that you have been through.
I feel so hopeful for you and so glad you are here!!