Today, I am grateful for...
-my laptop that allows connection to the outside world.
-my stomach is full from roasted turkey.
Please feel free to add yours...
-it being warm enough to rake the leaves :)
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Today I am grateful for all of you here. :hug: Some days it's hard not to think of myself as the "freak" (which I know isn't self-compassionate and isn't the way I think of any of you). Today is one of them. And it's just so nice to have this community of people where I can feel like I can be myself and not have a huge mirror reflecting something else back.
Lots of love to you all.
This forum. I'm struggling at the moment, but this morning, I again noticed: simply just thinking about "what would the others on OOTS advise me to do" is already helping me to cope with things a lot better. It's good to know I'm not on my own. I used to compare myself to non-CPTSD people, which created a lot of pressure. So knowing that there's this other community of people out there, and that we're all in this together, and that whatever I go through, there's usually quite a few people here who can relate... it's such a relief. So thanks.
Also, I'm grateful for crocheting, espresso, and Spotify (edited to add: internet radio).
:hug: Cat sorry to hear you are struggling but it is good to know that it does matter here that you are feeling. I hope you have a good day crocheting, drinking Expresso and I would say Spotifying but I'm not sure it's can be a verb since I don't quite know what it is lol.
- I'm grateful that I get to work at home today with my cat beside me and the sound of the wind versus listening to co-workers and pretending to conform.
- I'm grateful that I am finding it easier to talk about my feelings with people who matter to me. They may not always like what I have to say, but they spend less time guessing and being frustrated.
- I'm grateful that the holidays are over and I can go back to my version of "normal"
Mmmmm, I can smell the coffee Rain. Isn't it great when you get through a pile of work and can sit back and enjoy that first sip on a nippy morning?
You got it, Kizzie!! I imagine the same for you as you finished your class. :hug:
I'm SO glad to see this thread!!!
In 2009 I was diagnosed with Coronary Microvascular Disease, caused directly from Systemic Lupus Erythematosus. I found out that my cardiologist, rheumatologist and radiologist had a 45 minute conference call about me needing to be in the cardiac ICU right then, however, if they called and told me to go, the stress could cause a massive heart attack and kill me. They decided to just let me alone at that moment. At that time, I was given 5 years to live. When I came so close to death, I truly gained a new perspective on life and my life goals, dreams and wishes changed dramatically.
My life goal now is to meet all my future grandchildren. I saw everything differently. I have SOOO much to be grateful for!
This past year has been one of the hardest ever in my life. So much so that I've lost some of my gratefulness and that makes me sad.
So, for today, I'm going to say I'm really grateful for this site. No one knows what I am going through in my 'real' life (IRL). And, I'm going to try and keep it that way this time around. This is the first time that I've honestly felt like someone understands me...and that means the world to me!
:hug: Anamiame, we would love to hear all about those grandkids when they come :yes:
-finding this forum
-my cat
-my beautiful apartment with streams of light
-a glorious sunny day
-living miles and miles away from my toxic parents
Heh, I was grateful for that very thing today. I remembered what talking to my FOO is usually like, and then I took a deep breath and revelled in the fact that they are wonderfully, gloriously elsewhere. The sun was lovely here, too, after many weeks of winter. The kids were high on sunshine, running and laughing, and I felt happy, too.
-my new therapist
-bolognese sauce
-this forum
-cute puppies everywhere
That my son was granted his Master's Degree last night in Physics. He is such a blessing to my soul.
I'm grateful that my Lord, Jesus Christ, always makes Himself present in my life...even when times or tough or I am not very lovable.
that I finally took the step towards true healing. No matter how painful it is, I know I made the right choice. It's a very long road, I know, but I believe more now than ever before, that I will be able to complete this journey.
a good day that included lunch with friends and time spent outdoors in the lovely sunshine.
a new pet that gives unconditional love and that makes me smile.
..the rain. We need the moisture here, badly.
I woke at 5 am today, and listened to the birds slowly waking up, chirping out yawns and waking the world with their busy proclamations. Occasionally, I hear sticky tires roll by, making wet smacking kisses against damp pavement. Embrace this day. Even the tiniest nuances can offer something grand.
Quote from: schrödinger's cat on February 12, 2015, 09:34:58 PM
Heh, I was grateful for that very thing today. I remembered what talking to my FOO is usually like, and then I took a deep breath and revelled in the fact that they are wonderfully, gloriously elsewhere. The sun was lovely here, too, after many weeks of winter. The kids were high on sunshine, running and laughing, and I felt happy, too.
This is a beautiful paragraph and it lifts my spirits. I'm so glad you're doing well, and I wish you many more such lovely days! :hug:
A brand new bright shiny air conditioner. Especially since it is 95+ degrees where I live.
I'm grateful for 3 beautiful children that I hope to have back with me very soon.
I am grateful to have "me-time" for the next week.
Today I am grateful for these beautiful red roses that were on my doorstep, when I got home from my hike this afternoon. Today is my boyfriend and I's 1 year anniversary, and although he is in India, he takes the time. I'm grateful to have such a thoughtful partner.
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Woah, Kayfly, they're beautiful, congratulations! and no more than you deserve, all the stuff you post helps me a lot, makes me cry, makes me realise someone else feels all the stuff i do but haven't the courage to put out there. thank you, i guess you are what i am grateful for today :yes:
Awww Arpy1,
I'm so glad you are here. Thank you for being so kind and for saying what you did about my posts. It really means alot. I was just reading something of yours that I want to respond to. I can relate with you alot, so keep posting! And I am so grateful for you today too :)
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I am so grateful to have some clarity today, deciphering between the people in my life who have wanted to help me, the good people, and the people who were harmful. I'm grateful, that I can be grateful toward the sentient beings I have crossed paths with. I'm grateful to feel.
Amen, I'm grateful for my new job, all the people in my life who love me and have tried to help even when I was a pain in the *, and my three beautiful children.
I'm grateful I get to sit with a new friend at the ocean today :)
...the 'Let's hear it for the music' thread and DutchUncle/Kayfly' posts reminding me about Pink Floyd - those masters of their art. have enjoyed listening to stuff that takes me back a few decades.
i can remember at 15 lying, eyes shut, on the lounge floor with the music :band: :band: :band: :band: turned up to ear-bleeding volume (at least till the parents got home!!)
brilliant, thanks, lifts my spirits :thumbup:
I'm grateful for :yeahthat:
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...a nice "trigger"...
Yesterday I had discussed on a thread the fear/insecurity I have dealing with adults. Last night a light bulb came on, though.
For several years I was involved with a pre-school program called head start. I was often commended for my work with the kids, but that was from adults and didn't mean much. Frankly, I didn't care about anyone's approval, I just felt so connected to the kids.
Lots of examples, but the one that "triggered" today's grateful vibe happened once when a friend and I went to eat at a restaurant in a nearby town. It was rather crowded, so I didn't look around at who was there, just where there might be an empty table.
No sooner was I seated, than a mother of one of the kids from the program came right over to me (I'd actually left the job at the time). Anyway, she grabbed my arm and said "there's someone here who just has to see you" and indicated I should come over.
And there was her son, totally BEAMING that he could see me again...that was such a cool reminder of someone I'd clearly accepted "love" from. Analyzing the ins/outs of it doesn't matter; it was just wonderful!
that's so lovely... :yes:
My experiences in Group Therapy (my OP program) and the T for reminding me the importance of gratitude! I lost any sense of gratitude over the past 7 years and it almost cost me my life. :sadno:
QuoteGratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow. Melody Beattie
I learned the art of gratitude from Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer and the Misfit Toys when I was 5 or 6 years old. It is what sustained me through childhood, how I survived never being loved, being wanted by my family. I was grateful for school and teachers. I relied on them as parents as well as Rudolph and many other TV shows and musicians. I am grateful for those hard times because it is how I developed my skill to self educate and parent myself the best way I knew how. Gratitude gave me the strength to parent and educate my mother, brother, grandmother. They will never understand and will never be able to express any gratitude in return but this is not their fault. They are victims of their childhoods as well and never grew up, they really do not understand what it means to express or feel gratitude. In the absence of self-worth, self-esteem, gratitude is what made me resilient and has gave me the strength to overcome each obstacle.
:bighug: and lol, DaisyMae
I'm grateful for a fresh new start in school this term. I'm grateful for a good attitude, and my very own new innovative techniques in managing stress. I am grateful to not be surrounded by hurtful people of the past. And I am very grateful for my hard earned progress, that is showing through to others and myself. I'm proud of myself today.
My ability to reason and my ability to take care of myself.
Having a spot of earth to myself where I can have a bit of comfort and try to recover from things. Not many people have that. I have a lot of alone time.
I'm grateful I was just invited to be part of Honors Society at my college for academic achievement :)
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:yahoo: Yay, congrats to you!!! :bighug:
Thanks Dutch and Arpy ;D
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That's wonderful KayFly - congratulations!
:hug: thanks Kizzie
Today I'm grateful my writer's block broke lol, uh somewhat. Altho What I think I will be writing most wont be interested in.
Cats & Dogs.... Volunteering at the no kill animal shelter has been the most calming and therapeutic experience. Love is unconditional with them. The anxiety goes away for just awhile, it feels like nothing can hurt me while I am there.
MaryAnn ;D
...news that a boy who inspired me is still making an impact 2 years after his death to osteosarcoma. Before he died, he recorded a song for his family which made it to YouTube and itunes, where it soon became "viral". At that time, he said he wanted ALL the money to go into a fund to fight the disease with the comment that "wouldn't it be cool if it made a million dollars?". That fund topped $1 million today, and the scientists working on it indicate progress...so I'm grateful that his dream of giving hope lives.
I originally posted his music here:
http://outofthefog.net/C-PTSD/forum/index.php?topic=2089.msg14491#msg14491
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My bank account was overdrawn but I found 40 dollars in my pocket.
LOL. I know how grateful you must feel. I have felt such gratitude, more than once.
:hug: , it's tough, nevertheless.
Enjoy the moment, as you do. :thumbup:
Yay! lovely. a little gift from the universe to you!
reminds me of when the kids were little and i had no money for bread and milk for the weekend. went to get a tissue out of my jeans pocket and went into the key pocket by mistake. there was a tenner in there. must have been thro the wash a few times!
I am grateful..... for setbacks and challenges that serve to teach me about myself and about life and how to set boundaries with others especially narcissists and superiors that think power is about control not influence to help others learn and succeed. I may fall down at times but now I know that there many that I work with that will help me get back up, brush off the dirt, and support going forward. Never really cared what upper management thought, all that matters is what the people that I support think of me. As a manager, I am truly blessed by the people I serve.
MaryAnn :hug:
Both strengthening boundaries, which help me stay in my own skin, and the wonderful support of dear friends and family. I am truly blessed. The lunar eclipse served as a reminder that even when I experience a time of being in a shadow, this will pass. My 19 mile run yesterday, aided by two friends who joined me at various points, helped me know that it is important to push past boundaries and that I can and will do well even when very fatigued.
It is a great day to be alive.
- my friends.
- nice people who include me even though I self isolate a lot.
- my job, even though I don't enjoy it too much right now, I'm still glad I have it
- when the sky looks really pretty
- the stars
- dogs and other lovely animals
- all of the encouragement I've recieved from different people about my writing skills
- my fave foods and drinks.
- my fave movies and TV shows.
- books and documentaries.
- libraries.
- the Internet, for giving me community for the parts of me that are different.
- music.
- the sun.
- opportunity
- hopes
- dreams
- so many other things.
That's a lovely, long list Samantha :thumbup:
i had a client last night that likes working with me so much she put me on auto pay. it made me think, how lucky am i that i can make money doing something i love and i'm at least sometimes good at it. i have the potential to be independent and support myself. yes i have obstacles but it means a ton that there is something to work for.
I am grateful for a strong body that can run, and for a marriage that continues to improve over time. I am grateful for my teaching job and for the chance to help students see that their strengths can help them overcome their weaknesses. I am grateful for Monday, as it represents a whole slew of new possibilities and a chance to revisit things already begun and improve upon them.
I am most grateful for knowing when I am taking on too much, and being able to say, "No, I can't do that. That doesn't work for me," as opposed to trying to take on the world and watching it fall apart in front of my face ;)
My mother will be on the other side of the planet in a week and I won't have to deal with the drama of being asked to see her anymore. Maybe that will help me calm down. My body is starting to show signs of stress from all the pressure. I hate to be grateful for something that hurts another person though.
I'm also grateful that I seem to be doing ok with my job. I only make around 200 a week right now but it is going well. That's something.
Today I am grateful for my art. (my ability to create art).
:woohoo: A Valentine's card from a dear friend. :excited: :yahoo: :righton: :sunny:
Getting to work from home because the computers are down at work. No noise from my officemates, no chatter in the halls, no smells from people's cloying colognes, no too-hot-too-cold rooms, no fluorescent lightning... Just me in the comfort of my home. I think I am more productive today than ever. Why do more companies not allow people to work from home even when the network is running?
Well time to lock this thread as we are at 5 pages. Kind of nice when you think about it - we are a grateful group of people despite having CPTSD.