The following is an excerpt from an interesting site called Stoning Demons (http://stoningdemons.wordpress.com/ ) by writer Kimberly Callis who suffers from CPTSD:
Journal excerpt: Coming to terms with my condition...
May 23, 2014 - I wrote this as I was learning more about Complex PTSD and coming to accept my illness. This short journal entry helped me focus on my recovery with a sense of balance. I didn't expect it to be easy, but I did expect to get somewhere... Looking back, I see that I have accomplished most of the objectives I had. I'm still growing and still getting my life back on track, but I have made some progress.
I have an illness. I am dealing with it and it will take time.
My illness has caused some changes in my life.
Recovery is not only possible... it will significantly improve my way of living.
I deserve the time, space and resources to recover.
I am responsible for seeing that I receive the right treatment and care.
Recovery will be emotional. I am responsible for my emotions and will be respectful of others and myself during my recovery process.
My recovery will shape my understanding of myself, of life and of others as I moved forward.
My recovery will require me to focus on my physical health as well.
I will not stop. Sometimes I may need a break, but I will not stop getting better.
I will make it through this and create a life of my own design.
That is an excellent affirmation, I need to stick that to the front of my refrigerator as a daily reminder.
I wish I could claim it was my writing BeHealthy but it is by Kimberly Callis who suffers from CPTSD and has a site called "Stoning Demons" at http://stoningdemons.wordpress.com/.
The last line really resonates with me as well - we really all are trying to make a "life of our own design" by coming here, and by going to therapy and practicing self-help. And as she suggests we may stumble along the way and need to take a break, but then we begin to move forward again not quite knowing where we'll end up - that takes courage in the face of a lot of fear so "Well done us!" Group hug time :hug:
I especially like this line:
"My recovery will shape my understanding of myself, of life and of others as I moved forward."
Often I don't give myself credit that "awareness" is part of recovery, even though it doesn't immediately mean change and doing things differently.