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Development of CPTSD in Adulthood => Causes => General Discussion => Topic started by: helliepig on December 20, 2017, 09:56:44 PM

Title: celebrating the light
Post by: helliepig on December 20, 2017, 09:56:44 PM
I've had a hard week dealing with huge EF and really scared of the triggering effect of Christmas on top, then a difficult situation involving my teenage son tonight.
But I made a decision to ring someone and tell her how bad it truly has been, (really unheard of for me). When badly triggered I hide and stop and usually want it to end at any cost.
But this lovely person (who I met at a therapy group) listened and helped and guided and healed and for the first time the really really disgusting stuff inside of me was not just my burden alone. I was nearly out of my mind before I rang her with incomprehensible panic and somatic symptoms that were strangling me and now I feel almost normal. Then as if by magic another lovely friend rang me and suddenly I am ok. Not great, but ok
Huge for me, huge.
Taken me a long time to be able to feel the love and to find good people. Here's to the next chapter. xxx
Title: Re: celebrating the light
Post by: Rainagain on December 21, 2017, 12:02:14 AM
I am really pleased for you.

Support from people you can trust is so important, I'm glad it was there when you needed it.
Title: Re: celebrating the light
Post by: JamesG on December 22, 2017, 07:17:51 AM
good, well done. I have to say that making new connections that "get it" is a vital change to make. It's very normalising isnt it?

I suspect 2018 will see you consolidate this breakthru, keep it up Hellipig.

banzai!
Title: Re: celebrating the light
Post by: Three Roses on December 22, 2017, 07:51:09 AM
 To the next chapter!  :cheer: :applause:
Title: Re: celebrating the light
Post by: helliepig on December 22, 2017, 02:25:10 PM
thanks guys xx
Title: Re: celebrating the light
Post by: Blueberry on December 22, 2017, 09:27:06 PM
 :cheer: :cheer: :cheer: Yay helliepig! Good for you!