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I process a great deal of my realities and imaginings in song and comedy. Are there others here who do the same?

I'm in the process of recording some of them to share in future. Of course this would blow any anonymity/privacy I might think I have...lol

Music has been my meditation for as long as I can remember. 
I love the Sunday Bloody Sunday nod, but In The Name Of Love gets my vote in the U2 zone.

Here is a song lyric from a very calming source: Bob Marley

When the whole world lets you down
And there's nowhere for you to turn,
'Cause all of your best friends have let you down, do-o-own.
Then you try to accumulate,
But the whole world is full of hate,
So all of your best starts just drift into space.

I know a place where we can carry on.
I know a place where we can carry on.
We can carry on, we can carry on,
we can carry on, we can carry on.

And there is people like you, people like me
People need to be free.
And there's a place in the sun
Where there is love for everyone,
Where we can be, yeah.

I know a place where we can carry on.
I know a place where we can carry on.
We can carry on, we can carry on,
We can carry on, we can carry on.

Whe-e-e!
When the whole world let you down
And there's nowhere for you to turn,
'Cause all of your best friends, a-they have let you down, down-own-own.
Then you try to accumulate,
But the whole world is full of hate,
So all of your best starts just drift into space.

I know a place where we can carry on.
I know a place where we can carry on.
We can carry on, we can carry on,
We can carry on, we can carry on,
We can carry on, we can carry on,
We can carry on, we can carry on.
(fadeout)



Read more: Bob Marley - I Know A Place Lyrics | MetroLyrics

Asking for help is hard when your experiences have been shaped by caregivers who are unresponsive or abusive. I struggle with that as well. So often when you're vulnerable and need nurturing, if asking hasn't worked in the past, well...

It occurred to me that one novel that resonated with me in some ways was a Sci-Fi novel called Rite Of Passage by Alexei Panshin (sp?).

What a concise description of "cultism". So much of it resonated for me. Our family was secondary to the "cult" of dog shows. I can use the "DOG SHOW" metaphor in my creative writing to great effect. Food for thought. Thank you.

PCOS is Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. It is an endocrine disorder and a challenge for a number of women. The linkage between childhood cortisol levels and the syndrome suggests there is a correlation according to current research. Once again, it underlines my theory that everything is related to everything. 

Hello. I'm new to the idea of Complex PTSD, though I had been diagnosed with GAD, an attachment disorder, PTSD and Panic. This past week my young and eager therapist reluctantly shared with me that the prescriber of the medications I've been on for the past year had also indicated Borderline Personality Disorder, and they didn't want to tell me because of possible stigma (?) but it just didn't resonate with me. From what I can tell, that is not something that you can just diagnose as appropriate for someone in their late 40's with none of those symptoms or actions when you were younger...so I did some research and found that C-PTSD is often misdiagnosed as BPD. I'm still learning.
I had a very chaotic and neglectful childhood that to outsiders may have seemed fun and glamorous. There were a variety of the listed traumas. I was bullied at home and school for a variety of possible reasons, including a bad case of PCOS that led to the appearance of sexual maturity at a young age. I was trapped into a caretaker role from early childhood, and  I recognize myself in some of the childhood examples of how I coped and developed into a person who is now struggling to reprogram herself after a horrible workplace whistleblower/bullying tirade that has left me feeling really broken...
I'm so glad to see some answers here that seem to fit my complex set of life circumstances. I want boundaries that are appropriate, I want relationships that are satisfying, I want to feel less mistrustful. I also have PCOS, which I've read has some grounding in childhood anxiety and cortisol production, so I'm interested in any information that others may have or share about that disorder as a commonality.
Any and all information is a possible key to greater understanding.