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Hi guys,

Let me tell you one of my new experience.
Accidentally I found a mobile app: 'Strobe Therapy'.
It uses my phone light (after put it on my head between my eyes) blinking while stimulating the brain. As I mentioned, I've tried neurofeedback before - I think it's similar feelings after using.
It has a free part, but I bought the whole (for about 5 USD).
I've been using daily for a month, and it a little bit helps.
If someone inquires, I tell more.

Kizzie, Marko,

thank you for informations and kindness, guys.
Good luck you too.

Hi Kizzie,

Thank you for your response and I am grateful you to accepted me into OOTS.
Maybe I should be more patient with EMDR and Neurofeedback.
May I ask, how long after did you feel better? But as I mentioned, I know, that everyone has a different story.

Hi Marko,

Thank you for your kindness, you are very nice.
I haven't heard about Comprehensive Resource Model, thank you for advicing. I'll see if it's available in my country - I'm living in Eastern Europe.
I found a short-term birth story processing group therapy, that is not verbal but based on body-work - I haven't tried it yet.
May I ask how long you have been working in the CRM?
I know everyone has a different story, but I am grateful to hear experiences of others. I think it's important to see that we are not alone and there is hope for recovery- at least partly.

Interesting you mentioned generational wounds, because I participated in a Hellinger Constellation Therapy monthly group for a long time - but I finished. It was a very deep procession, helping to get close to my real feelings, clearing of my parents' stories and prejudices about the world. And ultimately came alive scenes from my own childhood during this sessions, I saw my little myself in difficult situations. And I didn't have to do this alone, supporting by my teammates.

But in the end, I have to work with my neurological injuries and my traumatized brain. Because I  suffer from being in alert or freeze in turn which exhausts me, and I am just surviving not living mostly not thriving. I don't know, how it works in general, but in my case I am doing better with emotional process - like seeing my story and family more clearly, letting out pain, feeling suffocated anger, crying my swallowed tears and after that accepting "This whole is my story" these are horribly hard, but went through them was easier than overwrite neurological answers. Especially dissociation is so strong and difficult to break down, because if you had no way out, you escaped to inside you in order to stay alive.

I've been in therapy about 6 years. (35 y/W)
I've so much experience about many type of therapy, positive ones for example with emotional processing, more positive self-image, letting out my hidden anger etc... BUT physical symptoms are very hard and sometimes cause suicidal thoughts.

Pills made it worse, and psychiatrists didn't understand.
(After I told I can barely get out of bed, She asked 'Why you have no children yet', and an other doctor, after I spoke about abusive childhood 'But you are adult now.')

So, I'd like to discuss the neurological background and solutions, because as I know being in long-term abusing environment goes hand in hand neurological damage.

Here is my experience:

- NEUROFEEDBACK: helped with being focused and present. I think I am better at work . But didn't really help against nightmares, depression and anxiety.
- PULSED ELECTR-MAGNETIC THERAPY - magnetic bed and head device
(I don't know if branding is allowed.)
After 2 month I think this was more useful than Neurofeedback in depression, brain fog, and dissociation- related dizziness.
Surprisingly positive, but I don't know yet if it's lasting or not.

- EMDR: Now after 1 year weekly sessions I decided to take a break. Helped but very slowly, in very small steps. Hard and need to be brave. Like when a Holocaust survivor goes back to Auschwitz - just in your mind among your memories.
Nightmares are still present. My therapist's clients have been in this for years as she told.
If it is not about 1 or 2 trauma happened in your adulthood, takes  a long time.
I am very sad, becuse thought it was the high chance.

- RTMS: I read about treating depression, but I haven't tried yet.
  I really curious if someone did, and what the result was.

- CRANIAL ELECTROTHERAPY STIMULATION (CES) - for me it was a little help with anxiety, but nothing significant.

- Other stuffs: running, meditating like 'Safe Place', using pillow mist, following 'Nightmare Protocol', Grounding Technics, keeping a pet etc.
These things helped me to deal with anxiety and panic thinking, but I think that these are just extra tools, not the main.

Anyone any experience about sort of these things?
Is there any hope at all?

(Sorry for my English)