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Hi Morph,

I'm glad you've found this it's definitely been good for me, I'm pretty new to all this too but hope to offer support to others along the way too.

I definitely get what you mean about the perfect matriarch thing.

Sending you lots of good wishes x

Hi Insanecrane1,

I think you will find a big welcome here and I totally get what you are saying about difficulty with personal preferences (bizarrely I have only realised thus now, reading your post, so thank you)

Des

Hi BluHorse,

I am pretty new to this site myself so just wanted to say Hi and I think you will find everyone really welcoming.  A lot of what you said really resonated with me especially about always having yo achieve more 

Take care x

Thanks globetrotter and badmemories,

My T has sent me a brief voicemail message which was reassuring in that she said she wasn't angry and will speak to me about it at my session tomorrow

Take care 

Thanks keepfighting,

Your reply has helped me to calm down and get things in perspective a bit.  I think I have a tendency to always think I have done something wrong and expect a bad response from others.  One of the things I need to work on 

Take care 

Thank you all, I have written to my T explaining how I feel and have asked her to reply but she hasn't so now I am in turmoil and feel that I can't think anything but that she is angry with me about sending the letter.b

It's my own fault I should have left it alone I think. 

Take Care x

Hi,

Thanks for your replies, it helps to know you understand. 

Sandals I have to change my therapist because it is being provided by the NHS (I live in the UK) and this course of treatment was for 24 weekly sessions which are coming to an end and to access more it would be with another T on the NHS and my current T would need to refer me.

She did say something about working on things over the next two sessions but I don't see how much can be done in that time, I have written her a letter to see what she intends but I feel like giving up.

Hugs

Hi,

I hope this is ok I just needed to reach out to people who might understand.  I have been to T today and she has said she has been talking to the colleagues she was going to refer me to on to when my weekly T finishes with her in three weeks, I will see her for review over 6 months and then it will finish completely. 

She said that her colleagues have advised that I would need to not be dissociating anymore and would be able to ground myself/ handle my emotions better than I can now in order to get this further therapy.

I am devastated as I don't know how to do this, I had a dissociative episode where I couldn't hear her after she told me this.

I don't know how I am supposed to get better, I feel so trapped.

Take Care

Thanks Butterfly, that's a good idea might make me focus more too.

Take Care x

Hi Ladybug,

I'm new on here too and the CPTSD therapy journey so not sure that I can offer any advice just yet, but just wanted to say Hi and therapy is hard but I think it is slowly paying off and feel it could for you too.

I also have Fibromyalgia and have been told it can relate to CPTSD, who knows if therapy helps, maybe it will help with that too.

People have been incredibly supportive to me on here and I am sure it will be the same for you.

Take Care 
Des

Hi,

I hope everyone is doing ok? I have been to the docs today and she has prescribed me beta blockers and diazepam, to deal with the panic/anxiety so hopefully it will let me get to a place where I can work on the grounding and relaxation.

Has anyone else been on this and how did it go?

Thanks, take care everyone x

Hi FindingPeace4,

Thanks for your reply it's really helpful and I will mention it to my G.P in the hope that she will listen.  I do feel if I just had something to tone down the anxiety, I would stand a chance on working on the grounding and mindfulness techniques as most of the time I am too anxious for them to work if that makes sense?

Can I ask what you mean by nutrition working for you, is there anything in particular that helps?

Take Care   

Hi. Rain,

Thank you so much for your reassuring reply, it has relieved the major anxiety I have been feeling over the last few days.

I find this very interesting as well and will look into it as I have fibromyalgia and wonder if this is all related to the trauma.

I would add that Van der Kolk, in his The Body Knows the Score stresses not only top down, but bottom up to heal trauma survivors such as ourselves.   The top down is DBT, the body bottom up.   Somatic  Experiencing is an example of working with our bodies to release the trauma.   

Thank a lot, I am really grateful for your advice.

Take Care of yourself

Hi Kizzie,

That's great thanks I will check it out.  The appointment went ok thanks, with some panic and lots of tears.  The T said she thought I had dissociated in some past sessions and she had used grounding to bring me back.

She has said that she has decided that I do need further therapy and she will refer me on after these sessions finish.  The waiting list is about nine months though so I will just have to try and hang on in there.  The therapy she is considering is dbt but she needs to take advice from colleagues.

Has anyone else had dbt therapy, all the things I have seen say it's for borderline personality disorder so I am confused by this.

Thanks

Hi Kizzie,

Sorry for the delay in replying, I saw my G.P and she said meds don't work for me, only dealing with the anxiety works, which is easier said than done . I think it's a good idea to ask my psychotherapist to talk to her and see what happens.

Thanks