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Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: I'm new here
May 14, 2022, 04:43:07 PM
Thank you for the warm welcome everyone. I have started listening to one of the books suggested in your resources. I would like a paper copy, but I have to be careful having that kind of thing around since I live with someone who thinks I should be over it and who is adding to my trauma. I would be interested in exchanging experiences with someone who is still living in a trauma situation and how to cope until I can get away (I am looking at least 6 years). If you can direct me to any of the forums, I would really appreciate it.
Today is my mom's birthday. She passed away in 2020. It's such a mixed bag because she was one of the many perpetrators in my life. She had a lot of trauma herself and she simply passed it on. So it's an emotionally difficult day because I do miss her and I regret never having been able to talk to her about all this.
Today is my mom's birthday. She passed away in 2020. It's such a mixed bag because she was one of the many perpetrators in my life. She had a lot of trauma herself and she simply passed it on. So it's an emotionally difficult day because I do miss her and I regret never having been able to talk to her about all this.
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Please Introduce Yourself Here / I'm new here
May 14, 2022, 01:40:49 AM
Hello,
I am glad I found this place to land as I try to make sense of it all. I have lived most of my life in a state of confusion, wondering why I could not do the same things that others did, why I was repeatedly picked by abusive people and why this pattern still continues. I feel that I am on a merry-go-round, stuck going in circles as I watch the wonderful world that I don't understand and can't be part of.
My main focus right now is to learn some coping skills as I am still stuck in a relationship that some have told me is abusive, yet I have difficulty considering that option because all of this feels normal to me. I have no physical bruises to show, but I am in shreds inside. It's discouraging as I watch time tick by and consider that perhaps this is going to be my life for the rest of my days. I feel maimed and crippled by all the things that I have gone through and it's a constant roller coaster of "I'll make it" peaks and "what's the use?" valleys.
I hope I can express my feelings, doubts and fears and find others who can understand what it's like to live with this terrible condition. Trauma for me started shortly after I was born and has not relented for half a century. I need hope, but I'll settle for understanding.
Thank you for reading.
I am glad I found this place to land as I try to make sense of it all. I have lived most of my life in a state of confusion, wondering why I could not do the same things that others did, why I was repeatedly picked by abusive people and why this pattern still continues. I feel that I am on a merry-go-round, stuck going in circles as I watch the wonderful world that I don't understand and can't be part of.
My main focus right now is to learn some coping skills as I am still stuck in a relationship that some have told me is abusive, yet I have difficulty considering that option because all of this feels normal to me. I have no physical bruises to show, but I am in shreds inside. It's discouraging as I watch time tick by and consider that perhaps this is going to be my life for the rest of my days. I feel maimed and crippled by all the things that I have gone through and it's a constant roller coaster of "I'll make it" peaks and "what's the use?" valleys.
I hope I can express my feelings, doubts and fears and find others who can understand what it's like to live with this terrible condition. Trauma for me started shortly after I was born and has not relented for half a century. I need hope, but I'll settle for understanding.
Thank you for reading.
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