a way for me to just ask if anyone else
goes through similar things to make me not feel different. I have struggled with depression since a child and still struggle with it. I began therapy when I was between 8-10 and I am about to be 40. Sometimes once a week (at the least) I think about how life would be easier if I weren't in it. I think about how my pain would vanish and it would just be a relief. I don't know why I spiral. Sometimes it can just be because someone made me feel left out. Having a BPD parent, I was always made to
feel wanted and then unwanted and it would
cycle. So, I always question this...and I can't decide if I am deliberately being left out or
I just go there in my mind because it is what I have come to expect? But, something so small as being left out of a conversation amidst others who are commiserating, can send me in a tailspin. Can anyone relate?
goes through similar things to make me not feel different. I have struggled with depression since a child and still struggle with it. I began therapy when I was between 8-10 and I am about to be 40. Sometimes once a week (at the least) I think about how life would be easier if I weren't in it. I think about how my pain would vanish and it would just be a relief. I don't know why I spiral. Sometimes it can just be because someone made me feel left out. Having a BPD parent, I was always made to
feel wanted and then unwanted and it would
cycle. So, I always question this...and I can't decide if I am deliberately being left out or
I just go there in my mind because it is what I have come to expect? But, something so small as being left out of a conversation amidst others who are commiserating, can send me in a tailspin. Can anyone relate?