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I am currently listening to the audio version as well.  Slow going for me too.  But I am determined to hear it through once then go back and read sections at a time in more depth.  Its a lot to process, so I am not going to try to eat that elephant i  one sitting, something I am prone to trying.  Changing my habits by being more aware of them.  Never easy but I am hopeful that we both will find here the acceptance and support from those who understand what its lime to grapple with this.  Best wishes to us both.  Will be posting my inteoductory post soon. 

Thank you.  Baby steps for me.  I am kinda of in a fragile place right now. Lots of triggers and emotional flashbacks, and still processing this diagnosis.  Yet just knowing I am not "crazy," that there are other people who understand what a roller coaster ride it can be at times, and who are willing and able to provide support to one another, well that is a relief.  So I will post soon.   Poco a poco llegamos lejos.  Little by little we go far. 

I just want you to know that I am right there feeling the trepidation about making an introductory post.  So far I am just reading all the other introductions, trying to work up the nerve.  What should I share? What is too much? Is this for real? 

After a year in therapy, during which I have SLOWY revealed some of my childhood, but mosly avoided it, I saw in my health record  the word PTSD. 
I admit I have kept my therapist at arms length, lest she too betray me,  freely admitting to her time and time again "I have trust issues." 

After seeing that diagnosis I questioned her at our next session to which she replied "I really think the root of your suffering is CPTSD."  It was a revelation.  I started reading everything I could find and it wax a lightbulb moment.  In that search I found this site.  3 weeks later I am still trying to get the courage to make my introductory post.  So I feel you.  I guess this is my prelude to an introduction.  Baby steps indeed.