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Wow, thanks for that Rain!
Lots of encouragement there. I am thankful all of us are not alone, we need each other.
Just thankful I can cry at all, but will rejoice in that I was able to shed so e tears about my past today with my husband. I think it is coming and when I can with my T or not her friend, that will be a breakthrough for me. Not obsessing about it.

Yes, I must say having the freedom to express myself, like that child who never could has been therapeutic. It's coming ever so slowly but is so freeing.
I agree, we could not handle if everything hit us all at once. I woke this morning and realized working through my suppressed emotions has changed me, and I did not like the changes. Had to oust my inner critic. I am tired, exhausted and less motivated. I have crashed yesterday for an hour who he'd caused a horrible nights sleep, but I could not fight the total exhaustion after grieving for two hours yesterday morning.

I find being an older mom with two younger teens and going through this process now very difficult. I am thankful for the two people and one Higher than I that get this, get me, and I have the freedom to be myself. Now I have all of you, special. We are all special, extra special 

I really appreciate the warm welcome and words of wisdom, especially that each day adds up faster than we think. I need to work real hard on the self care. Very foreign, but taking your suggestions to heart. Little things do matter.

Glad you are here and I see active on this forum

Hi All, I am new. It is very late and I am so tired but enjoyed reading all the posts on this thread.
I have suppressed my emotions for over 50 years, learning how to feel. It is truly a slow go but I see progress in my ability to grieve and to am starting to feel the good things a bit.

Yes, a life long journey, but the silver lining and knowing my journey will be used by G** in the lives of others is comforting. I can relate to the shear exhaustion of dealing with an EF, had a big one yesterday and then grieving. Had to take a 5 mile walk to get myself feeling like the adult me afterwards. Exhausted today. Hard and painful stuff that must come out to move forward.

Thank you all for sharing as I gain insight by reading your stories.
This is something that effects all areas of our lives. A new thing just popped into my head about relationships. I will be discussing that with my T next week. I had no idea there was a potential issue here. I need an objective person, my T who knows me yet has expertise in this area to tell me what she sees, and how we can move forward. Again my main focus is on feeling. I am asking myself how I feel about everything so the emotions can come out. I have not been able to display my emotions with anyone, just alone. My T is seeing some of my anger, but it would be a miracle if I cried in her office. It will happen one day. As the topic says, it's a slow go 

I am delighted to have found this forum. I began my healing journey 3.5 years ago and am almost done reading Pete Walker's extremely enlightening book Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving.
I hope to gain insights from others, and when I am led share what might help someone else.
This is the hardest journey, but it is mine and I will continue to fight for every bit of freedom I can get while still on this earth. Thank you for having me!