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As well as being emotionally abused by my parents, I was sexually abused by a family friend. It all happened through something called Naturism. My family were heavily involved in it and I spent a lot of my childhood lying to friends as to where I went on holiday because I would be on holidays where we wore no clothes most of the time. I became a good liar with a lot of things; I learn't young.

The family friend was someone I really liked and he became like a father figure to me because my own father was so neglecting towards me. Everything he did to me was done gently and I felt special and wanted. Now I know it was sexual abuse. But I struggle with liking him and wanting to spend time with him. I feel a lot of shame because of this.

So now I'm stuck with CPTSD as a result. I'm taking things slowly because everything is so triggering at the moment.

   

Hi

Thank you for letting me join this site and forum.

I grew up in a very abusive household with parents who didn't care for me and my sister emotionally. I've spent my life thinking I'm not good enough, not loved and deserved it all. On top of this I suffered sexual abuse which my parents didn't believe happened. I feel so let down.

Recently I was really triggered because my mum needs my support after breaking her hip and emotionally I can't give it to her. It's really hard because all I want to do is walk away.

Anyway that's a bit about me.