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Welcome Fraying. Although I do not have the "c" in cptsd I do suffer similar feelings with just regular ptsd. It took me a while to reach out and though I'm not on the forum a lot, everyone here has made me feel at home. Good for you for joining and don't be reluctant to talk. Take care

Thank you all for your heartfelt replies. Sometimes one loss is too much and when someone answers the age old question "how long will it take to recover?" by saying "the time that it takes" is often not acceptable. I can see the scar on my wrist heal everyday but I cannot see the scars inside. Only feel them.

Sometimes I resort to my painkillers to take away the pain, but it does not heal the right one. I feel for all of you in this forum. I truly do. And thank you sincerely for being an ear to listen and a shoulder to lean on.

Hi Rick and a warm welcome to OOTS. 

I'm so sorry you went through so much in the span of a few years and are experiencing flashbacks and panic. Do you know what is bringing on the guilt and shame? Is it because you're not over it? CBT can be helpful for some things, but it also makes a lot of us feel we are failing because we don't just get over the trauma we endured.

You suffered a really bad accident then a series of big losses and that can make the world an unsafe and sad place to be. Perhaps you need a therapist who can help you with the fear and grief using a different approach than CBT given you are still suffering.

You could Google where you live for a trauma informed therapist. Or, we have searchable databases for therapists here -  https://www.cptsd.org/forum/index.php?topic=881.0.     


What brings on the guilt and shame starts off with pain. It reminds me of why I am the way I am. I try to shake it off, distractions, deep breathing techniques, medication etc.

Why guilt? Shame? Because I was the only one on site and I was the one who took apart a pipe that was supporting the heating unit my ladder was rested upon. No one else was there, no one. Just me. There is always something to blame for an accident. This time it was me

Thank you for getting back to me. My psychiatrist has mentioned and encouraged that I try doing the Brunet Method of reconsolidation therapy https://en.reconsolidationtherapy.com/

Apparently it works in only 6 sessions, however they use it with beta blockers, but with the antidepressants, anti anxiety, pain meds and adhd meds, I take enough candy as it is.  I am afraid yet curious.

Has anyone tried this?

Good morning all, and thank you for letting me in. I suffered a work accident almost 4 years ago. I severely fractured my wrist and ulna. Surgery fixed it...sort of. A month or so after it happened, I started to get violent flashbacks. I consulted my doc and was referred to a psychiatrist then off to CBT. While the CBT has been good in helping me cope with the many losses that I have incurred over the last 4 years (mom died 2019, accident 2019, covid, dad died 2020, mom in law died in 2022) but mostly, being deemed unable to go back to my career as an HVAC tech.

I am at a crossroads with myself. Having constant pain in my wrist/hand always triggers my ptsd and the negative feelings that come with it. Mostly guilt and shame. I cannot shake it. This is negatively impacting my marriage and family. I get stuck. I can't get out of it sometimes. I panic, I get anxiety and depressed and then refer to medication to take the pain away. I hate this.