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I'm so glad I found this site. I'm scared because I'm a student teacher and my guiding teacher was verbally abusive and actually man handled a few of the 2nd graders! I managed to make it thru the day but the next day I went into a full blown meltdown because they were the ages of some of my cruelest abuse. I dropped out of student teaching because I'm still a wreck. I confronted my mom about my dads abuse of me sine I was 1. I realized like a thunderbolt how horribly wrong that was. Then his constant shaming and terrorizing me til I was 14 left my spirit broken. I turned to drugs. What's worse was that my mom turned a blind eye to his abuse which left me feeling utterly abandoned and lost and depressed. The drugs helped for years til I quit. Then I started drinking...less so now. My flashbacks to feeling small and abandoned overwhelm me. I need EMDR. Anyone try that?  I have a therapist and a shrink. TY for reading!