it's been about a decade now since I was groomed, SAed, and mentally overwhelmed by all this......I spent a number of years in foster care, bouncing from home to home. And when I finally found what seemed to be a good foster home, things turned for the worst. I was 16 at the time and facing a lot of mental health challenges. Self harm is a huge part of my journey, and at the time it was happening pretty frequently. I'm also a recovering addict, and this was around the time when things were picking up with that too... long story short,
The older son of my foster parent (she was in her 60's and he was 42) was a really cool guy. Always nice to talk to, and was very charismatic. Well he and his girlfriend, and his son (age 5 or 6 at the time) lived in the home. Fast forward, I ended up finding his stash of pills and taking a bunch. I overdosed and was about to be removed from the home. He told the state to let me come back into the home, and in return he had a way into my pants...... not only was I sort of in a tough spot with the living situation, I did find him attractive and he showed me things sexually I never knew about. Anyway, recently I've been doing a lot of thinking about him. Even looked him up on social media.
Id like to think I've done a good bit of healing on this subject but a large chunk of my heart is still confused and hurt. I really wanna write him a letter.
Just wanted some general feedback as to if I should, and if I should send it to him?
My AA sponsor says I shouldn't even waste my time writing one, but she also has a lot of negative male relationships so I trust her advice in almost every area but this one! Thank you!!!