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My username actually used to be my aol username back in the day when you had dial up and I was in high school and was playing soccer -- it was my life then -- really a true coping skill to survive the abuse I was endearing. But, I was graduating in 2000 and our mascot was the wolfpack so I made the username wlfpck00 so I thought I would keep that as my username for this account. It was available and I haven't had the aol account since dial up stopped and I went to college. I have loved the sport of soccer and even played in college. It has been my saving grace truly.

Thank you to those who replied and you are right my trauma often talks to me -- I guess that is why I'm here. I will learn more about CPTSD as I explore this site and as I more through my trauma with my therapist and the groups I participate in. Thank you for welcoming me with open arms. You are so kind and I'm looking forward to being involved in this forum.

Hello, I'm new the doctor's just changed my diagnosis from PTSD to CPTSD -- I have been diagnosed with PTSD for 22 years and have struggled with dealing with my severe trauma's throughout my life. I believe I finally have the right diagnosis. I'm scared though as talking and dealing with my childhood abuse has been very very hard for me. I have tried ECT, EMDR, recently Ketamine Treatment (the nasal spray), several medications...and many many years of group and individual therapy. It has been a rough road. But I'm not willing to give up yet. I hope this forum and the OOTS group, with the hopes I can join and be accepted into it, and my continued therapy will help me get through this next phase in my treatment. I have always been willing to work hard at recovery from my past abuse history. But, sometimes feel as if I have failed myself and the people trying to help me. But, I guess I'm still working hard, so we will see.