Wow thank you all for the warm welcome and the advice! I didn't expect myself to become overcome with emotions but I think without meaning to I haven't allowed myself to feel troublesome emotions, like vulnerability. There's something incredibly powerful about feeling heard and understood though that I didn't realize I'd been missing for a long time.
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Please Introduce Yourself Here / My intro (trigger warning)
March 30, 2024, 07:41:58 PM
Hello! Thanks for accepting my membership. I've read through the rules so I'll try to abide by them and keep things as brief as possible for now. Hopefully I don't overshare.
I'm a man in my 30s with a long history of childhood neglect as well as suffering other forms of trauma due to my parents being addicted to substances that they used to self medicate severe mental illnesses, dealing with losing loved ones to addiction at a young age and being put through the foster care system. I had managed to block up all the years of trauma until I became an adolescent and everything I repressed came back with a vengeance affecting my mental health severely, becoming agoraphobic (not leaving the house) for a year, eventually seeking treatment and after years getting a proper diagnosis of CPTSD.
I've made a lot of progress and strides in my life that I'm proud of but I also always feel like I'm 2 steps forward and then 3 steps back. I've reached a plateau in my treatment and been really unable to find effective therapy with my limited means. I find much of it boils down to my lack of self worth, self esteem, and self confidence after my childhood. Struggling with relationships due to my trauma doesn't help either. Not really sure how to rebuild as a person yet, but I hope to perhaps find some likeminded people on here who will hear me out and give me someone to relate to as well! Thanks.
I'm a man in my 30s with a long history of childhood neglect as well as suffering other forms of trauma due to my parents being addicted to substances that they used to self medicate severe mental illnesses, dealing with losing loved ones to addiction at a young age and being put through the foster care system. I had managed to block up all the years of trauma until I became an adolescent and everything I repressed came back with a vengeance affecting my mental health severely, becoming agoraphobic (not leaving the house) for a year, eventually seeking treatment and after years getting a proper diagnosis of CPTSD.
I've made a lot of progress and strides in my life that I'm proud of but I also always feel like I'm 2 steps forward and then 3 steps back. I've reached a plateau in my treatment and been really unable to find effective therapy with my limited means. I find much of it boils down to my lack of self worth, self esteem, and self confidence after my childhood. Struggling with relationships due to my trauma doesn't help either. Not really sure how to rebuild as a person yet, but I hope to perhaps find some likeminded people on here who will hear me out and give me someone to relate to as well! Thanks.
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