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Hi I lost my first adopted cat who was 11 years old.  He had only been with me a few months.  Despite the pain of losing a much loved cat I took a step of adopting another and this has helped me lessen the grief.  I remember my cat by having a photo of him on a stand and a plaque outside where he used to position himself before scaling the fence. 

Feeling unsafe throughout my life left me with crippling loneliness.  Finding safe relationships is important and surrounding oneself with people who validate and encourage.   

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There was a quote that I once saw "Lonely is not being alone, it's the feeling that no one cares". 

Supports for CPTSD has given me, personally, a sense of belonging.  Particularly as I find others whom I can relate to and there can be a mutual understanding and a way to comfort one another.

 

Thank you for your kind encouraging support.  Very much needed.

Thank you all for your support and encouragement. 

Sending you from a new member having come out of a dark tunnel into the discovery of my having CPTSD.  All the best on your healing journey. 

Hi.  I have always suppressed emotional pain.  When triggered I could express uncontrolled anger in different ways. Intense emotional outbursts with myself or directing my anger towards others by various means.   I have begun to realise the damage that I was inflicting upon myself emotionally and through repercussions that can rear its ugly head in various ways by others who would not, or could not understand my reactions when I felt hurt in some way.  I think it's okay to feel angry, at times.  I always remind myself that at least I am still human and have feelings and that there can often still remain parts of my anger that I have not yet explored or come to recognise where it's coming from. I have had a long history of counselling, medication, psychiatry.  Latest being diagnosed with having CPTSD.  I saw a quote that I thought was very insightful to me "Anger is the self preserving and self protecting energy".  To me, personally, this has to be somehow 'controlled' according to my circumstances, so as to feel safe.  It's a battle and journey that I hope to be able to continually handle, with much support.

Hi my name is Merlin.  I am now widowed.  My journey so far having being diagnosed later on in life with CPTSD, has been and continues to be a very difficult one physically, and emotionally.  Beginnings started from an emotionally distant and insecure primary caregiver and an enabling father.  We both faced much invalidation which I have come to understand this as projection of the abusers own feelings.  Hoping that my mother would change seemed to me now one of wishful thinking.  She is now 89.  My recent therapist described her as having a narcisstic nature.  I have now decided to go 'no contact' with her.  I am now on a healing but still difficult daily journey of self-compassion.