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Hello Phoebes,

Just wondering what you decided to do in the end?

I am currently in a very similar situation - almost identical - and in a real dilemma about what to do (I found your post by searching the forums for similar experiences).

My kids are very excited to go to the wedding to see their cousins etc but I am dreading it and feel like I'm walking into the lion's den. I am going alone as my partner and I separated fairly recently so I just feel completely unprotected and vulnerable.

Would love to hear how you managed it in the end and, if you did go, what your experience was?

Hi everyone,

I'm looking for support and solidarity on my healing journey as I have very little people around me who offer me this.

Recently discovered CPTSD and it's like suddenly everything makes sense. I have been in therapy for 5 years but I feel it is a long journey to get me to a place of safety.

I have recently limited contact with family to almost nothing but I am still struggling with the guilt of this despite everything. My childhood and teenage years were neglectful, emotionally abusive and I am still the family scapegoat even in my adult years.

I am learning and healing every day but it isn't always linear and despite having my own children now I don't always feel strong enough to keep pushing on. I have days where my shame and guilt and self loathing feel like too heavy a burden.

Discovering CPTSD has been a huge wow moment for me though and I now know there isn't something wrong with me, as such. I feel positive that I can keep growing and keep learning with all the resources available, and I am looking forward to utilising this forum as part of that healing journey.

So much love to you all fellow CPTSDers!