It's been a long time that I've been working on myself. It's been a shorter time that I've had names for my problems. I felt good, happy even, like I was doing well and being myself. Then the days started to feel empty. I started to feel exhausted. My family has been trying to interact with me more and more. I am less and less inclined to indulge them. Culturally my problems are intersected in more of a tangled web than I want them to be. I have been less interested in everything. I am grasping at straws, reading every book & article and watching every video. I want to be well. Desperately. I often wish I could go No Contact, but I know it would cause more damage than I am ready for or able to withstand currently. I feel tired of having to explain myself constantly. So I don't explain myself anymore. I just don't know where to go from here. I'm always sad. I feel like I drag down my chosen family, they don't always understand. I feel so tired. I wonder if anyone else has felt the hurdle of continuing through a confusing plateau. It was slow to creep in but it feels so permanent. I know it's not, but that doesn't make it any easier. I feel hollow and exhausted. And that makes me feel hollowing and exhausting to everyone around me. I don't know what to say to help them help me. I know eventually this will be in the past and I will be on the other side but for today I am here, and I need help.
Please let me know if anyone has felt a similar plateau in healing & growth. Please tell me how you communicated with your community to let them be there for you. How did you identify what you needed?
Thank you for your time friend.
Please let me know if anyone has felt a similar plateau in healing & growth. Please tell me how you communicated with your community to let them be there for you. How did you identify what you needed?
Thank you for your time friend.