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WOW CONGRATS! so proud of you!

Hi Kevin! Fellow pisces and CPTSD survivor here I totally understand the fear of starting a new job. I started a new job in June, my first full time job post grad too. I was sooo scared! Looking back, I am like what the heck was I so scared about? I love the job, my boss is amazing, and I feel super safe. I never even thought about any of those things really being possible when I got the job, all I thought about was how terrible it could be or how I would get fired, etc. It is easy to spiral into the negative thoughts. Sometimes I still have those thoughts about my job now. I wrote down a list of affirmations to read to myself that I keep in my desk drawer at work. Combatting the fear/anxious thought spiral at the start of the day with affirmations has really helped me. I also downloaded an app called I am that has daily affirmations that I would recommend if you are interested!

Hi Kizzie thanks for the warm welcome! The program at my school was called the Center for Survivors. It was specifically for survivors of sexual assault and domestic violence, but was also highly tailored to treating PTSD. It was an amazing free program for students and university employees. It saved my life. I wish it was something everyone had access to. They still allow graduates to use their advocacy program and help line, but that's about it. They greatly helped me in my transition to find a new therapist where I live now, but what I miss most was the safe gathering and hangout space and amazing support groups and art therapy. I am trying to build my own community now and find new groups to join. I like the idea of finding a Womens rights/anti hate group. It's hard not to feel powerless with the state of the world, but we do have options and we can make a difference.

Hi everyone,

My name is Claire and I have CPTSD. I am 25 years old. I was first diagnosed with PTSD about two years ago, and a couple months ago diagnosed with CPTSD. I went undiagnosed and untreated for quite a long time. I have suffered from emotional abuse throughout my entire childhood and into my adulthood from my father. I also survived two sexual assaults/rape at the end of high school and during college, both from people I thought were my friends. Life has been really hard for me recently. I am dealing with a plethora of health issues, recently got out of a relationship, and am moving out of the childhood home I was both emotionally abused and sexually assaulted in. Not to mention, a predator was just elected into office as our president.

It feels like the weight of the world is on my shoulders right now. My CPTSD symptoms are at an all time high. I have a therapist I really like and although I feel hopeless right now, I know it will get better working with her. I have been trying to open up to more friends, write more, get back into making art. I am terrified to move out of my house. I am moving in with a trusted family member, but it still feels so terrifying because of that voice in my head telling me I am safe nowhere. But I know I cannot live here any longer. I am looking for a sense of community, as I feel that is really missing for me in my healing journey right now. At my college there was an amazing program for survivors where I felt I built a community, but since graduating I have really grieved the loss of that. I'm looking forward to joining this community and healing together.