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Like you, my body carries the burden too. I have experienced neck pain and other pain that comes and goes with emotional flashbacks. Stretching helps. Also, I am more routinely doing body scans. More recently, I notice my shoulders rising and back muscles tightening, and then consciously relax them. EMDR has helped, especially with dealing with old and repressed memories. Being alone in my thoughts and memories is not good for me, so I write poems and make art that express the pain of childhood neglect and abuse that I endured. I share the poems and artwork on social media with friends and others and that helps as I break free from the myth of my family's narrative of us being an ideal family. We weren't. I was the all bad child of my borderline mother and being hypervigilant was necessary for my survival.