Hi,
My soon to be ex was recently diagnosed with PTSD (4 months) and asked for a divorce 2 days after Christmas. I was devastated. Since then I feel like I have been on an emotional rollercoaster. Over the term of our marriage I slowly lost myself into what he wanted. I began to go to counseling and we believe he is a Narcissist with sociopathic tendencies. I feel like I am slowly waking up and finding that I no longer no myself. I can't sleep. I have lost almost 40 lbs in 3 months (there is a plus side to this madness). I go through phases of hating him because he wouldn't move out of the home and still wanted to act married even though he wanted a divorce and then when he actually did move... I felt panicked and wanted him back. I can cry at a drop of a hat. I know I should probably distance myself from him and rationally, I know it would be best and then an hour later I just want to hear his voice. He constantly lies about anything and everything. He tells me he loves me but he can't trust me. We met tonight to go over property distribution and one minute he tells me all the bad things he thinks about me and 5 mins later he wants to have sex. AND I WANTED TO! I feel like a mental mess. I know there is something wrong with me. I know how he treats me is wrong and some of the time I know and want to get away... So why are there times I still want to be with him? I know its bad. But it is especially difficult when I see him or talk to him. I feel like I am going crazy and my mind is at war with itself. Advice? Is this CPTSD? My counselor is on vaca
My soon to be ex was recently diagnosed with PTSD (4 months) and asked for a divorce 2 days after Christmas. I was devastated. Since then I feel like I have been on an emotional rollercoaster. Over the term of our marriage I slowly lost myself into what he wanted. I began to go to counseling and we believe he is a Narcissist with sociopathic tendencies. I feel like I am slowly waking up and finding that I no longer no myself. I can't sleep. I have lost almost 40 lbs in 3 months (there is a plus side to this madness). I go through phases of hating him because he wouldn't move out of the home and still wanted to act married even though he wanted a divorce and then when he actually did move... I felt panicked and wanted him back. I can cry at a drop of a hat. I know I should probably distance myself from him and rationally, I know it would be best and then an hour later I just want to hear his voice. He constantly lies about anything and everything. He tells me he loves me but he can't trust me. We met tonight to go over property distribution and one minute he tells me all the bad things he thinks about me and 5 mins later he wants to have sex. AND I WANTED TO! I feel like a mental mess. I know there is something wrong with me. I know how he treats me is wrong and some of the time I know and want to get away... So why are there times I still want to be with him? I know its bad. But it is especially difficult when I see him or talk to him. I feel like I am going crazy and my mind is at war with itself. Advice? Is this CPTSD? My counselor is on vaca