Hello my name is Tony
Within the last week or two, I found out that I have Complex PTSD, which was a huge revelation. For a long time, I thought my life was perfect, but I always felt empty inside. I struggled with two suicide attempts and self-harm that I never truly acknowledged, believing that I was okay when, deep down, I wasn't.
Finding out that my mother and father most likely has been controlling me my entire life was eye-opening. I'm starting to understand that I may have been a victim of emotional incest, something I'm still working through. It's difficult to fully process, but I believe this control went on for the first 22 years of my life until my husband came along and helped me see things differently.
I'm still not 100% okay, and there's a lot I'm still processing. It's hard because therapy is something we can't afford, but finding this forum and reading others' stories has been incredibly helpful. It's comforting to know that I'm not alone and that it's not just my behavior causing these issues—there's more to it, and it's not my fault.
Thank you all for being here and offering support. It's making a difference for me.
Within the last week or two, I found out that I have Complex PTSD, which was a huge revelation. For a long time, I thought my life was perfect, but I always felt empty inside. I struggled with two suicide attempts and self-harm that I never truly acknowledged, believing that I was okay when, deep down, I wasn't.
Finding out that my mother and father most likely has been controlling me my entire life was eye-opening. I'm starting to understand that I may have been a victim of emotional incest, something I'm still working through. It's difficult to fully process, but I believe this control went on for the first 22 years of my life until my husband came along and helped me see things differently.
I'm still not 100% okay, and there's a lot I'm still processing. It's hard because therapy is something we can't afford, but finding this forum and reading others' stories has been incredibly helpful. It's comforting to know that I'm not alone and that it's not just my behavior causing these issues—there's more to it, and it's not my fault.
Thank you all for being here and offering support. It's making a difference for me.