Hello everyone!
This is my first time and first post on this forum. I am in the process of healing after going no contact with my family for the past 6 months. Didn't even know I been scapegoated and suffering from C-PTSD until recently. I am experiencing a lot of emotions since discovering this. Relief but a lot of grief aswell of the years wasted living in agony and the loss of family. I am angry aswell with a higher power whatever you wanna call it "God" or the universe for never giving me a break. I've worked so hard on myself for the past 10 years but I still can't make a romantic relationship last more then a few months. Been attracted to mostly narcissistic and emotionally neglectful men in the past. Even though I no longer find this men attractive and can spot them miles away the thought of being in a healthy relationship is so triggering for me. I no longer trust anyone and as soon as I meet someone new I get paranoid that their kindness is just an act.
Thanks for reading 🙏
This is my first time and first post on this forum. I am in the process of healing after going no contact with my family for the past 6 months. Didn't even know I been scapegoated and suffering from C-PTSD until recently. I am experiencing a lot of emotions since discovering this. Relief but a lot of grief aswell of the years wasted living in agony and the loss of family. I am angry aswell with a higher power whatever you wanna call it "God" or the universe for never giving me a break. I've worked so hard on myself for the past 10 years but I still can't make a romantic relationship last more then a few months. Been attracted to mostly narcissistic and emotionally neglectful men in the past. Even though I no longer find this men attractive and can spot them miles away the thought of being in a healthy relationship is so triggering for me. I no longer trust anyone and as soon as I meet someone new I get paranoid that their kindness is just an act.
Thanks for reading 🙏