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#1
Recovery Journals / sparlkegarden's journal
May 29, 2016, 02:29:45 PM
[dips toes in water]

This is a nice forum  ;D

will maybe post more later.
#2
Thank you so much for sharing this. It sounds similar to what I went through (extreme passive aggression is just  :fallingbricks:), and so it's really nice to hear that someone else gets it. So sorry that you're hurting now  :hug:

Also, do you have a link for the article on sexual abuse that you found? (don't search if you don't want to, but I just thought I'd ask)
#3
Hi FlyingOnBrokenWings,

I hear you! What you went through sounds awful  :hug: I'm sorry no one's replied to this in over a month. It's really great that you're out of your parent's house, and I hope your situation does get better. To be quite honest, it does sound like you're still being abused: occasionally being hit (most people simply don't hit their family), not being listened to over reasonable issues with you past, and it sounds like you have an awful lot of house work. Hopefully you wind up with a lovely life, because you're going though/have been through a lot.

You asked if you have cptsd. I think it's definitely possible. No one half sensible would expect you to get through abuse unscathed, and some of the things you mentioned resemble symptoms of cptsd. The obsessive focus on grades reminds me of Pete Walker's description of fear responses -specifically the flight type (workaholism and perfectionism). http://pete-walker.com/fourFs_TraumaTypologyComplexPTSD.htm If you are still in a state of fear years later, that definitely suggests CPTSD. Similarly, it often comes with depression symptoms, which you mentioned, and difficulty remembering things. Take that as you would a non expert on the internet!

btw, this don't sound immature to me. It seems you're just very upset and need to vent to someone -a pretty good way to cope, actually.

oh, other thing: does your junior college offer any kind of counseling or mental health services that you could get? You might or might not find a therapist you connect with, but a diagnosis and info on coping might help, or info on other resources available to you. Also, if you have the house work because your grandparents are very elderly, there may be government support services you can get.

anyway, hugs and hot tea to you, whatever happens.