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I pick at blackheads and zits ... probably not the same extent, but it is something I've done for a long time

I haven't read all the responses, but I saw a few and I'm so glad that I'm not alone with muscle tightness. I have extremely tense muscles (pretty bad, where they don't/can't relax without chemical help). It also seems to get worse if I've been triggered recently.

I found stretching, heating pads, and massage helps (but isn't a cure). If I deal with my emotions, which is really hard to even feel sometimes, I find that the muscle tension isn't as great. Also, I'm in CA and I have a recommendation for medical marijuana which helps with muscle tension and relaxation—and incidentally, feeling emotions.

I hope this helps someone.

Hi Drew,
Welcome.
Not feeling heard can be triggering if it has been a pattern in your life.
I can tend to feel triggered by feeling unworthy of attention and insignificant, not important enough, I guess.

My mother, in her blithe, not really noticing me way, kind of acknowledged that I was invisible as a child when she said of someone else: (something like) "He still has problems because he was overlooked as a child, like Radical was".
Radical was in the room and astonished.  The problems in the family went way beyond me being overlooked, but it's the only acknowledgment I've ever had, or probably will ever get from her.
(I thought I was getting the silent treatment from her for months sometimes, but I suspect that after the initial hostility, it was partly that she clean forgot I existed.)

I hope you are able to feel supported here.  There are not many people around a lot of the time, and we all have our own particular 'things'.  Don't take it personally if people don't respond to something you say.  It happens to most, I think.  I just think of it as journalling if no-one  responds to what I have written.  I still get value from reading what others are talking about.

Thanks. I hope I feel supported here too. I just needed to dip my toe in. Will be checking things out over the next couple weeks. Never really been in a support group, so it's all new to me. Thank you for the welcome and words of wisdom.

Welcome, Drew! 

Thank you!

Hi,

I'm a new member here. I'm not so good with forums and such (not being heard is a trigger of mine), but I'm hoping to learn and hopefully help myself.

Currently in therapy with a county worker who hasn't diagnosed me with anything. I'm not sure if he can or cannot depending on law, but I've done a fair bit of research on my own and I fit a large portion of the diagnostic lists I've seen. I'm coming to terms with even the fact that I was abused (I can't seem to remember any specifics) and it's been incredibly painful and disheartening so far.

Thanks for reading.