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I was just reading the very helpful post about self-soothing. This is an area I am struggling with. I use food, and the over eating of it to sooth. I use prescription meds combined with alcohol to sooth and I use cigarettes. I hate all of these. They help for the moment make it worse in the long run and only continue my self-hatred. How do you get out of such a loop? Really get out it. Stop doing it and turn to things that are positively soothing. This is a lot harder than these simplified questions make it sound.

I am struggling, like many of you wit complex PTSD. I have been suffering with trying to get out of the incredibly crippling and devastating trauma of my early childhood for many, many year. I have an additional think to deal with, a chronic illness that causes much pain. I have to make some medical decisions soon. I do the fawn and flight type, whenever something is hard I cave like a ton of bricks.

Here's the question. I've decided not to seek medical treatment anymore. I'm 53. I'll go if I've an infection or cold or something that can be fixed, but I won't do anymore breast cancer, colon cancer checks. I won't do all the MRI's and the test after test. I am going to stop all of that and go when I go.

My question. Do you think that is an okay thing to do? Moral if you like?I've had terrible medical support and have no one in the medical field to help me. Obama care has made getting any kind of care nearly impossible. I feel so bad all the time (chronic pain) that I don't want to pursue any medical help anymore. I'd like your thoughts.