Thanks to those that replied. I really appreciate the support...
My biggest concern is how symptoms of PTSD (and CPTSD) seem awfully similar to Borderline Personality Disorder. There are certain things that have happened to make it seem like I might have Borderline, but upon looking closer, I survived narcissistic abuse throughout childhood and then in my marriage, so CPTSD makes more sense. The thing that bothers me is that after my divorce, I stopped talking to a lot of people that were kind of toxic to me, including my family, so it almost seems like I'm abandoning people, like a Borderline...but the truth is, I really just wanted to move on and build more healthy relationships. I completely quit all social media. I have a pretty significant trust and abandonment issue as well, which is another Borderline symptom. Thinking that I have Borderline, however, gives me tremendous anxiety...
With the way my ex husband spins and twists the truth (to my family, especially), I wouldn't doubt this is something he's saying I have...and making me seem like the dysfunctional one. I haven't spoken to my siblings in over a year at this point (not without lack of trying to get in touch), partly because of my ex husbands poisoned manipulation. His behavior is the definition of triangulation and gas lighting.
Anyway, I'm heading back into court over my son, and I'm pretty terrified of what may happen. I haven't been perfect nor have I been without symptoms of anxiety or depression, and I know my ex will stop at nothing to destroy me. I'm trying to be strong for my son, but with my symptoms of PTSD, it's very hard. I'm remarried to a wonderful man, and somehow I'm also terrified of losing him if my ex says something awful about me in court.
Any strategies for me to cope going back into court? Or strategies to catch my ex in his lies?
My biggest concern is how symptoms of PTSD (and CPTSD) seem awfully similar to Borderline Personality Disorder. There are certain things that have happened to make it seem like I might have Borderline, but upon looking closer, I survived narcissistic abuse throughout childhood and then in my marriage, so CPTSD makes more sense. The thing that bothers me is that after my divorce, I stopped talking to a lot of people that were kind of toxic to me, including my family, so it almost seems like I'm abandoning people, like a Borderline...but the truth is, I really just wanted to move on and build more healthy relationships. I completely quit all social media. I have a pretty significant trust and abandonment issue as well, which is another Borderline symptom. Thinking that I have Borderline, however, gives me tremendous anxiety...
With the way my ex husband spins and twists the truth (to my family, especially), I wouldn't doubt this is something he's saying I have...and making me seem like the dysfunctional one. I haven't spoken to my siblings in over a year at this point (not without lack of trying to get in touch), partly because of my ex husbands poisoned manipulation. His behavior is the definition of triangulation and gas lighting.
Anyway, I'm heading back into court over my son, and I'm pretty terrified of what may happen. I haven't been perfect nor have I been without symptoms of anxiety or depression, and I know my ex will stop at nothing to destroy me. I'm trying to be strong for my son, but with my symptoms of PTSD, it's very hard. I'm remarried to a wonderful man, and somehow I'm also terrified of losing him if my ex says something awful about me in court.
Any strategies for me to cope going back into court? Or strategies to catch my ex in his lies?
