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Thanks, you all, and great to hear from you.

Hi, just wanted to say that I am still alive.

Sorry that i am so bad at checking out when I'm not going to post for a while. Lately, I have been dealing with some things that feel too off-topic to post about here. But I think about you all regularly, and it remains a source of comfort that this place exists.

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I usually find this helpful: http://www.pete-walker.com/13StepsManageFlashbacks.htm.

Also, grounding techniques might help: http://did-research.org/treatment/grounding.html.

I'm sorry that you are having such a scary experience.

Welcome, TimePassingBy!

Glad you are here.

I hope you don't feel badly about anything, radical. Nobody can give what they don't have.

So glad to hear that you have a promising situation with a new therapist! That makes me really happy for you, as I remember what you were going through with the last one and it was heartbreaking.

And I think you summed up perfectly what decent therapy looks like.

I'm always grateful for however much you are able to participate.

So sometimes what happens is a need to explain thoroughly what I'm trying to say. That very need is an insidious effect of cptsd--if one felt unheard before, that compulsion to explain more fully and/or just vent easily becomes habitual. Spilling one's guts--in person or in print--doesn't fit easily into artificial word limits.

I actually experience this a lot in IRL interactions. And I care what you have to say, woodsgnome! 

While i'm here, I also want to back up Dee about the need for paragraph breaks. I am not able to read huge blocks of text even if I want to. The site guidelines already ask that people use frequent paragraph breaks, but people don't always know.

It isn't fair.

i don't like any diagnoses that erase what happened to me. So for example, I don't want to hear about any depression or anxiety diagnoses, because, for me, those things are symptoms of complex trauma.

PTSD, C-PTSD, and dissociative disorder diagnoses don't bother me so much, because there is a built-in understanding that these terms describe conditions that have been caused by trauma.

Welcome, living_free!

My therapist, who I really like, and who specializes in C-PTSD and EMDR, is thinking that perhaps he doesn't have specialized enough skills to help me.  Perhaps, he thinks, I need somebody even more specialized.  I find that scary.  It's like the opposite of him saying "Don't worry, I see this all the time.  It's easy to fix."

I would probably be scared by that, too. But it's good that he knows his own limitations. There are some therapists out there who don't, and they can end up harming people. It's odd, though, that he would confirm a diagnosis of C-PTSD and then tell you that you need to see someone else, when he is specializes in C-PTSD.  Do you know the names of the tests you took?

There does seem to be a connection between trauma and psychosis. You might be interested in this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y6do5bkUEys.

Welcome, Kat! 

Glad you reached out.

Welcome, SE7!

My syndrome presents mostly as being avoidant, isolated, and major issues coping with people -- especially those who represent some form of "authority" .. hence the issues I have with finances, health and employers. Basically every foundational aspect of life.

Wow, I could have written this. Sorry that you are also in this situation.