Hi
I'm new here and I'm desperate for any kind of help. I haven't had a diagnosis but I'm currently trying to get one.
I'm seriously struggling. I have parents that if you ever met and spoke to them you would tell me how lucky I am to have them, how wonderful they are how kind and generous they are.
They're not its all fake. I am not my father's he adopted me when I was very young they then went on to have a boy together and what can I say, he walks in the room and the sun comes up, he can do no wrong and is just perfect. The only thing I have done right is have children, however I had a surprise gorgeous funny little girl and having her has made me realise that my childhood wasn't great (I struggle to say what it was) to the extent that Ive recently found out that one of my aunties wanted to adopt me and took me away every weekend so that I had some time away from it.
They have very little time for my wonderful little girl. I'm crying while I'm writing this how stupid is that!!!!
They dote on my brothers children and on my older son but my younger son less so and my daughter a lot less. My brother lives well over 200 miles away and I live within 10 miles and they see more of my brothers children than mine. I just can't stand it, it physically hurts me.
I just want the pain to stop if that makes any sense?
Obviously there is so much more but I don't want to bore you all.
I'm going to press post without looking back as I know I'll feel guilty and anxious about what I've written and I'll delete it. So apologies if I've rambled or got some spelling wrong.
If you've got this far, thanks for reading.
Buttercup
I'm new here and I'm desperate for any kind of help. I haven't had a diagnosis but I'm currently trying to get one.
I'm seriously struggling. I have parents that if you ever met and spoke to them you would tell me how lucky I am to have them, how wonderful they are how kind and generous they are.
They're not its all fake. I am not my father's he adopted me when I was very young they then went on to have a boy together and what can I say, he walks in the room and the sun comes up, he can do no wrong and is just perfect. The only thing I have done right is have children, however I had a surprise gorgeous funny little girl and having her has made me realise that my childhood wasn't great (I struggle to say what it was) to the extent that Ive recently found out that one of my aunties wanted to adopt me and took me away every weekend so that I had some time away from it.
They have very little time for my wonderful little girl. I'm crying while I'm writing this how stupid is that!!!!
They dote on my brothers children and on my older son but my younger son less so and my daughter a lot less. My brother lives well over 200 miles away and I live within 10 miles and they see more of my brothers children than mine. I just can't stand it, it physically hurts me.
I just want the pain to stop if that makes any sense?
Obviously there is so much more but I don't want to bore you all.
I'm going to press post without looking back as I know I'll feel guilty and anxious about what I've written and I'll delete it. So apologies if I've rambled or got some spelling wrong.
If you've got this far, thanks for reading.
Buttercup