Hello All, I was diagnosed with PTSD a couple months ago but after doing research for myself I feel like I fell more under the CPTSD and found this site. Thank you to all who created this site.
My development came in my adulthood after many years of mental abuse from my now ex husband who is an alcoholic. He controlled nearly everything I did and made me feel it was my fault for all of his short comings. I was lucky enough to never have been physically abused but the last moment before I told him I was leaving was when he punched a wall right next to my head and threatened to punch me in the face.
I have been divorced for almost a year now and been seeing a therapist since Oct, 2016 I have many different triggers most of which I am learning to bring my emotions into check and talking through my state of mind, but lately I find that maybe I'm talking through them too soon.
Last night for example I was triggered, I started to explain that I was in high anxiety state of mind and that I was triggered. But when I moved into the part of why their action triggered me I started to contradict myself back and forth and would loose my train of thought and loop back to the beginning. This caused a lot of frustration with my family member which caused my anxiety level and saddness to kick in more and I then felt like I was not and could not do anything right.
Has anyone out there dealt with this as well and do you have any suggestions/tools to keep from going in the loop?
I don't see my therapist for a week so thought I would put this question out there, thank you.
My development came in my adulthood after many years of mental abuse from my now ex husband who is an alcoholic. He controlled nearly everything I did and made me feel it was my fault for all of his short comings. I was lucky enough to never have been physically abused but the last moment before I told him I was leaving was when he punched a wall right next to my head and threatened to punch me in the face.
I have been divorced for almost a year now and been seeing a therapist since Oct, 2016 I have many different triggers most of which I am learning to bring my emotions into check and talking through my state of mind, but lately I find that maybe I'm talking through them too soon.
Last night for example I was triggered, I started to explain that I was in high anxiety state of mind and that I was triggered. But when I moved into the part of why their action triggered me I started to contradict myself back and forth and would loose my train of thought and loop back to the beginning. This caused a lot of frustration with my family member which caused my anxiety level and saddness to kick in more and I then felt like I was not and could not do anything right.
Has anyone out there dealt with this as well and do you have any suggestions/tools to keep from going in the loop?
I don't see my therapist for a week so thought I would put this question out there, thank you.