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i. have been started on lithium and the side effects are crazy. i feel very dumb. absent minded, lost, forgetful, hard to concentrate.  i feel weak a lot and my muscles ache. just wondering if this is normal at first and does it go away.

thank you guys for your support

i finally went and got some help. i checked myself into the local mental facility for a week. it was strange but overall was better for me. i was able to get back on my seroquel and started lithium. getting used to the side effects, difficult concentrating, forgetful, absent minded. i would rather feel like that than the way i was before.  i get to start with a new therapist next week, hoping for good things. i do want to ask. a favor. if anyone would check in on me from time to time i would really appreciate it. i don't have much of a support group here. thank you for talking the time to read

thank you. i am going to go to a different location. they have been good to the people i know. i will make sure to let them know about my last time so i can be taken seriously.

i am still fighting going to the er. the last time i went 2 years ago i was treated poorly. the first doc was nice, thank goodness. the only shrink that talked to me was the first night to assess me over skype. she was ok and asked good questions. i brought my meds with me with the dosage on it but they didn't want to give me what i needed and give me what i don't need. i have pcos and metformin is used to help. i told them i was not diabetic. they would not listen and pricked my finger 3 times a day, until a new nurse came in 4 days later and she actually listened and it stopped. i had to ask 3 to 4 times for the meds i needed. the rest of the docs made me feel worthless and did not show any compassion. never the same dr and sat for 3days without seeing a doc. they asked if i wanted to see the clergy man i said yes. he came on Sunday, as he is introducing himself the nurse came in and said "you can't talk to her" pulled him out my room and that was it. no one else came by except for the nurses. i was kept for a week with no answers or help.

would you have any advice on what ineed to do there to make sure that doesn't happen again

feeling like a burden to those around us - I am battling that right now. i have been crying for days.  i don't want my only 2 people in my life right now to have to deal with such big issues. they already do so much for me and there is nothing i can do in return. i am so lost right now. haven't left my room in a week. have a major panic attack whenever i try to leave then make it even worse by beating myself up for being a wimp that can't go outside.

sorry, went on a rant. i was just tyingto let you know you are not alone even though it feels that way.

thank you for your kindness. i have been trying to get help for over a decade now. i don't work now so i can't pay for healthcare. when i did work i could not afford healthcare. the drs that have tried to help either are not experienced with cptsd or don't care and think it is all in my head. which makes me more scared to ask for help. i have been trying to go to the emergency room but the last time i did i was treated badly and kept for a week before i could be released. the fear is killing me

mine is my initials and loves you. i have always been suicidal and i know how it feels to be alone. i figured anyone seeing loves you would make them feel comfortable and not scared. i hope it helps others

 I am a 37 year old woman who has been suffering with cptsd since childhood. i have tried living a normal life but as many of you know that is hard. i have reached the bottom and cannot dig myself out. it has gotten to where i don't even leave my room. no one around can relate and think I'm crazy. reaching out to people who understand.