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Hello.  I've come to accept that I have C-PTSD; introduced to it by a counselor. Since I was young, I have endured abuse of every kind.  The biggest episode was of my father trying to kill me and my grandmother watching. When my father threw my body outside, he realized I was not dead, then got into his car and tried to run me over.  I have never been the same since.  So, every romantic relationship I've had in my life has been abusive; physically and/or emotionally.  Currently, I am living with my ex fiancé due to poor financial issues, being stuck in a lease together. This last breakup has made me take a moment to step back and wonder why I keep putting myself through this? Over and over again, same guy, just a different face.  That's when I reached out to a counselor and diagnosed me with C-PTSD.  I have 4 months to live with my ex, I feel horrible, and there seems to be no signs of hope.  I want to feel better, but don't think it's possible when I am still in a bad situation.  Is there something I can do to help me cope in the meanwhile?