Quote from: JamesG on April 30, 2017, 04:52:08 AM
Mine was set up in childhood but the real catalysts were over the last few years. Looking back tho I can see the patterns, I'm aware I was living with the damn thing a lot further back. Again, a narcissist, in my case a brother and mother tag team. The flare up of mum's illness and death were the final major trigger, exacerbated by work and an alcoholic partner. To my mind, nothing works better than new understanding connections and the help of old friends. It's been a close run thing for me tho, suicidal thoughts have been a regular feature. Having your life wrecked by other people for no rational reason is a killer.
I hope you stay strong James, you deserve to have an amazing, fulfilling life! Keep surrounding yourself with positive connections and hopefully you'll be able to replace all the bad memories with amazing and happy ones soon.
Narcissistic people are so hard to get out of your head so I can only imagine how draining your situation was. Constant questioning and confusion is a tough thing to get over, I found writing things down and even recording conversations, when I was still in contact with my NPD abuser, helped me finally keep track of things and stop my mind from constantly trying to figure things out and question or blame myself. Maybe that could help you sort your thoughts and seperate your truth from their false reality, even after the fact.