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I just relapsed in April after 13 months of sobriety. I drank alcoholically from the beginning at 17 yrs old. I am the kind of drink that starts at 5 pm Friday  and still be drinking until sometime after noon on Saturday without any uppers. No one I have ever drank with drinks this way but I know its because I don't want the feeling to ever end. I believe I keep relapsing because I have never wanted to face the trauma's in my life going back to early childhood and onward. I just learned of CPTSD in 2014 and its taken til now for me to understand or accept that those traumas must be dealt with if I am ever to permanently escape alcoholism and all its horrific consequences. I am 44 now and its been one big, hard circle. Good luck to you.

Where does one start to begin healing or managing ones CPTSD? I have used alcohol for over 20 yrs with some yrs of sobriety through AA in there. Recently I relapsed after 13 months of sobriety on April 7th. My father was an alcoholic, Vietnam combat vet who met his end, due to cirrhosis, in 1994 at the age of 44. I know AA is not helping me get to the root of the problem(s). Suggestions please.

How do I begin healing from CPTSD? I have used alcohol for over 20 years with disastrous results and consequences. My highschool sweetheart got back in touch in 2014 after 23 years, and she sent me a book about CPTSD but I didn't take it seriously and continued to drink and ruined that relationship yet again. I do know even when I have stayed sober in AA that I have never gotten to the root of what has been my downfall. The more I read about CPTSD, the more it fits. My father was an alcoholic, Vietnam combat vet that passed due to cirrhosis before he reached 45 yes old.

I truly understand