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I was the kid that was always feeling outside myself or definitely observing from a distance.  Life felt safer that way. I am an artist, so some of that comes naturally.  It really is a protective instinct and we should respect that, even if I tend to criticize myself for that behavior.  Sometimes, I just go somewhere else in my head if my mom is saying something awful, in order to process how i can survive it.

Hello,
I wanted to say that this week is my first time to directly look at my dissociation.  It also makes me feel better to hear that others do it too. Sorry guys. My form of it is when I am feeling very happy, that I might internally be critizing myself and kind of feeling spacey inside.  I think it is so hard to trust the joy and believe that I deserve it.  However, I can take it with me and look back and remember the joy.  I think that we should not be hard on ourselves about this.  It is there as a defense against pain.  The tendency is to judge ourselves for something that we may not be able to control.

Hi,
You do sound like you are trying to work out some very strong feelings by getting sick.  I have heard of other people doing that as well.  I feel badly that you are suffering and the dealing with the bulimia.  My sister had bulimia when she was a teen, so I am familiar with it.  I agree that if you can muster up the courage, try to get some help with the eating issue to take care of your health.  Hope you feel better.