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Do you guys think their a thing? I'm starting to get blurry images suggesting sexual abuse from my father ,It feels real, I remember the feelings , I can even sort of feel the body sensations.....but I keep thinking it can't be real he wouldn't do that, I've had people with actual PhDs say repressed memories aren't a thing.....

I really have trouble focusing on things -between dissociating and just being distractable. I'm in college and I'm really having trouble with learning the material, and being able to do work....does anyone have any strategies on being able to focus better?

I've been feeling the same way...If I'm not messed up then what am I? I have no idea what being "normal" feels like so it almost feels safer to stay this way....

Does anyone else here have parts or people in there head..,,.? I'm wondering if CPTSD is enough to explain my brain or if I have DID or DDnos-the thing is my parts don't completely take over and I don't lose time .

I have episodes of intense fear, feeling little,and/or feeling bad or brokenseveral times a day  and I think these are emotional flashbacks.often I'll crave candy when I'm feeling bad which is something several people in the thread about what EFs feel like describe. If I think about/try to deal with my abuse it happens more. I've been having trouble falling asleep the past few days.Does anyone have tips for coping with these and/or making them less frequent.

This is something I've been dealing with for a long time . Their's a voice in my head that's always trying to find reasons that I'm bad or stupid or something....just like many adults in my life did when I was a child (my parents still do sometimes...). Anyone found a way to make that voice shut up?

I've been looking at this forum for a while but afraid to join-because I haven't been diagnosed with cptsd...however the symptoms match me very well....I was emotionally abused throughout my childhood by many different adults though I m having trouble believing it was really bad enough ....I struggle with self harm. I always feel like I'm bad. I have trouble trusting or having normal relationships with people (though some of that is my autism) .I'm very anxious at random times. For a long time I thought I didn't have ptsd because I don't have flashbacks . When I read on this site about emotional flashbacks I do have those sometimes. Obviously you guys can't diagnose me but that's what's going on.....