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When I get up, I immediately do not want to go to work, so as I get ready, I tell myself it's going to be okay, I'll have a good day, just keep busy and my day will fly by and before I know it, I can relax at home again.
Deep breaths and positive thinking (even though it seems nearly impossible some days)
As for meals, I try to make something the night before (I can't eat food first thing in the morning so I do smoothies)
By the time I'm done lying in bed until the last minute, and getting myself ready I don't have time to whip something up.
And when I get something healthy in me in the morning, it makes me feel good (even though I still want those donuts lol) try making a fruit salad made with yogurt and granola the night before.

Thank you for your replies. I have had the last few days off of work so I have taken the time to take care of myself.  I took what woodsgnome stated and thought on it. I am okay.  I've made it this far! Much love to you all <3

Hello.
I feel like I was doing so well with my recovery. After a very long time, I was starting to feel better, learning to love myself and learn new things about myself. 
I had an incident at work which triggered an EF and since then I can't seem to shake off the feelings. It's like I'm stuck in a hole and I can't get out. Nightmares nearly every night. I don't want to sleep because I don't know if I'll have a night of peace. My night thoughts get to me. I constantly think of all the "what-ifs"....what if i spoke up about the neglect and abuse as a child...who would I be today? Where would I be? It makes me feel lost...
I tried doing a guided meditation to heal your inner child but I started crying so hard it hurt and I had to stop.
It's like I take a step forward and I am happy and I get thrown 10 feet back.

I just want to be okay again.