Figured I should write this.
I'm not even sure if I have CPTSD, but I was reading something online about it and figured I'd check it out. To keep things short, I'll just say a few things.
Me and my 3 siblings were emotionally and physically abused by both parents as a kid, mostly my mom as my dad worked crazy hours. We had nothing and were living illegally on my grandma's farm. She didn't like us either. I don't know if I'd say they neglected us but we definitely didn't have what we needed (like water, beds, clothes, food).
My mom abandoned us when I was in gr2 and we had to live with my grandma. She hated us, and made sure we knew it. We were physically and emotionally abused there too. We ate 2 meals on a good day when we lived there.
Since then my parents got us back. More abuse. There's also domestic abuse, my dad likes to hit and break things. I have anxiety, depression, and dissociate, plus whatever else. I deal with anxiety and panic attacks, and what I'm now learning is emotional flashbacks. I can't deal with a lot of normal people things, but I'll get kicked out if I don't do what my parents say.
I have problems relating/talking to others, it's as if there's someone there to tell me no one cares, no one ever cares, people don't wanna listen to you. I have no real friends, the only "friend" I have is highly abusive. If this is how hard life is now, I'm not excited to adult
**Sorry if this doesn't make sense/flow, I just needed to get stuff out. I'm happy to have a name for something affecting me
I'm not even sure if I have CPTSD, but I was reading something online about it and figured I'd check it out. To keep things short, I'll just say a few things.
Me and my 3 siblings were emotionally and physically abused by both parents as a kid, mostly my mom as my dad worked crazy hours. We had nothing and were living illegally on my grandma's farm. She didn't like us either. I don't know if I'd say they neglected us but we definitely didn't have what we needed (like water, beds, clothes, food).
My mom abandoned us when I was in gr2 and we had to live with my grandma. She hated us, and made sure we knew it. We were physically and emotionally abused there too. We ate 2 meals on a good day when we lived there.
Since then my parents got us back. More abuse. There's also domestic abuse, my dad likes to hit and break things. I have anxiety, depression, and dissociate, plus whatever else. I deal with anxiety and panic attacks, and what I'm now learning is emotional flashbacks. I can't deal with a lot of normal people things, but I'll get kicked out if I don't do what my parents say.
I have problems relating/talking to others, it's as if there's someone there to tell me no one cares, no one ever cares, people don't wanna listen to you. I have no real friends, the only "friend" I have is highly abusive. If this is how hard life is now, I'm not excited to adult
**Sorry if this doesn't make sense/flow, I just needed to get stuff out. I'm happy to have a name for something affecting me